Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

Today I've overthought about my future, it ended up into a panic attack and suicidal thoughts opping in my head. Hopefully I've been coping well

Been a quiet day. Badly needed.

Much lower anxiety today and yesterday after having peaked in a really intense way Monday. I think part of it is my intense therapy session Monday evening. Like maybe I got it out of my system or exhausted myself like a child throwing a temper tantrum and wearing themselves out and calming down.

I've had some big 'wins' against my anxiety lately.

Spending most of the day trying to get over a headache. Still trying not to stress over various things.

I'm waiting for a response in my email and I'm starting to get nervous and anxious. If it's not the response I expect I'll be upset.

Daughter quit her job on her first day because a coworker verbally harassed her in front of her customers. Management was like, oh that's just her. Apparently they didn't want to fire the coworker because she can sell store credit cards. My daughter gave up starting at a higher wage to get into this job, and she basically told them she is not coming back. She has PTSD and yelling is a trigger.

So after calming her down I didn't sleep well (again) and still agitated. Did a little retail therapy and that helped.

I only got two hours of sleep last night. Was up worrying about various things- God hating me, what if I go to Hell, insurance not covering a perscription, and family stress. Thankfully I got a call that the perscription will in fact be covered. I did manage to take a three hour nap too, hopefully that helps me make up for some of the missed sleep.

Lots of thunderstorms, starting early this morning. I'm nervous about them. Supposed to be storming all day, but we have a small reprieve until this evening. Ugh!

Otherwise everything is all right.

My anxiety levels are really really high today. There are things I have to deal with that I'm not dealing with.
I'm seeing my psychiatrist today and going to ask about medication options. I'm considering an SSRI. I can't keep living like this, and therapy takes time.

Another really awful day today, I don't know when this nightmare is going to end. Why is my life like this when I've done everything to change? I'm a cursed soul, that's all I can put it down to.

I have been growing more and more anxious walking my dog. We have no yard so it means walking him 5-7 times daily so as he can do his business. Anyway, each time I drag out my coat and tuque I do so with a great deal of trepidation. The dog is a rescue and while he is improving he has a strong and aggressive reaction to other dogs that is unpleasant, frightful, and even embarrassing. I begin each trip outside afraid of a dog encounter - be it actually dog or merely the sound of one. I have likely posted this before. It is a problem.

Another wasted day, it seems. I wrote a few poems when I was angry and that hasn't turned out very well. We also took another hour running errands. I'm making fried rice for dinner so that meant cooking lots of rice and cooling it off.

Just frustrated, and not getting enough sleep isn't helping.

i have anxiety disorder.i am in a wheelchair paraplegic from chest down.i can not sleep very good.i take ambien and still wake up early.i use lavander to fall asleep.my back is very sore right now cause i dont go to bed until like 1130 at night when its time to take my sleeping meds.i take lexapro for abouyt 12 days now.i take it in the morning.and today i bought some l-theanine and calmag calcium and magnesium.does anybody have any other secrets for sleeping at night?i also use accupressure to calm down when i am anxious.its like i cant calm down or get tired to go to sleep at night.

I am scheduled for a medical test tomorrow with a specialist to get a second opinion of a test that my doctor performed last month. I am worried about it even though my doctor said it should be ok. I haven't been able to concentrate well this week.

Still a great deal of trepidation regarding walking my dog. I worry such a great deal. I don't stop shaking until we are safely inside; but, then comes the countdown until he must go out yet again.

My stomach and guts are going nuts. Hope it calms down soon.

Sleepless night..the phone rang & woke me up at 1 A.M and I had trouble falling asleep after this lol.
Today at school our teachers gave us a lot of work to do for next week (assignment + two tests) and i had a panic attack because of it, for 30 min I was crying and choking, I couldn't breathe properly, lol my friend even thought I was having an asthma attack XD

So bascially I was drained physically and mentally during all the day but I did my best and I'm proud of that

Checking in. I have chronic anxiety and here to say hello. I only just found this thread. Today was a particularly anxious day so I found this section, but it had calm down for a good while before. I'm in need of advice, so i'll make another post in a bit.

((Hugs))

Woke up in pain and feeling uncomfortable. Went to urgent care who sent me to the ER. ER gave me a med and sent me home. I fell asleep, only to wake up with a pounding headache and upset stomach. Working on getting fluids and some bread down. Earlier our noses started running and eyes were watering. I just hope we didn't catch something else.

Also did two loads of laundry and the usual house stuff. Pulled a bag of clothes for charity.

I'm anxious because I have to wait until Monday to get lab results.

I went to my college class this morning and I felt anxiety. The lecture was about mitosis and disease of cells

Had talk with daughter about situation with her boyfriend, moving, and getting another job. That was rough, but now it's done and she's moving along.

Day two of sinus infection. Still have to take a lot of meds to get through the day. Husband is feeling even worse. I did three loads of laundry and vacuumed the main floor. Still need to do meal planning but I'm just not motivated.

A lot of stress today but I'm managing.

Yesterday I was very panicky. Today my anxiety is average for me, which is still high compared to a typical person.

Did a poetry reading at the college this afternoon. I'm now terrified. I felt my poems suck, and my delivery sucked. I probably dissed myself in front of the entire English department. Arrrgh!

Other than that it was a normal day.

My old friend panic is back. Over the last few months, I didn't have real panic attacks. I just felt really anxious the whole time which is also really uncomfortable and scary but better to deal with. However, over the last month, it kinda changed back to panic attacks + constant worrying. Today I felt like my tongue is swelling up and I am going to choke. Also had to return from my walk earlier than planned bc I couldn't breath anymore.