[shyBoldgirl88]

Hello everyone!
Hope everyone is well...So just need to vent about current issues I'm dealing with. I'm not exactly new the site...it's just been a while since I've logged and and had to set up a new account. I've dealt with OCD and panic disorder pretty much my whole life. The past few years have been really rough for me and I've thought I've been coping pretty well until now.

Everything seems to be happening all at once. My dad passed about 4 years ago and left me his house to pay on so I would have a place to stay. Well I've been keeping up with the payments until about 6 months ago when my job laid me off...and now my current job has cut my hours almost part time. I face forclosure and have no assistance from anyone and no family to turn to. I do have a boyfriend...who sort of adds to my stress. He isn't working, on probation, and does nothing to even attempt to help with bills etc. I feel so alone and becoming overwhelmed with stress and worry. I've been frantically trying to find a new job but I live in a rural area and good jobs are scarce. I'm so scared of the thought of not having a place to stay. I worry pretty much all the time and am starting to have what I call "small" panic attacks again. I call them small because they are not as acute as a full on panic attack...but usually what happens is I'll have a few small panic attacks and then a HUGE one. Which I try to avoid like the plague. I really do appreciate anyone who takes the time to read all this venting. I just don't know what to do anymore after trying so hard for so long...I feel like I'm failing.

[marvin_pa]

I can identify with your situation - especially that feeling of being overwhelmed by everything seeming to come together at the same time. At some point, you just burn out & become less efficient at dealing with life's seemingly endless stream of curve-balls.

Try to think of it less as 'failing' and more of being dealt some very challenging circumstances. If you can, try to find out if there are local/state resources that may be able to help. Your local NAMI branch may be able to point you towards local resources to help deal with anxiety/insurance issues.

[Marwy]

It is very hard to put payments out every month for a house...especially when you don't have a partner that helps you out. Can you rent out one of your rooms to anyone? That would bring in extra money. Remember that you have done your best and you are not failing. Things are always replaceable... but you are not... please take care of yourself. If the bank takes the house, that will be one less anchor around your neck. I would go and rent a room in someone's house. I have done that before and it felt great. No more worries about a house and all I have to do is pay for a room in someones house. Takes all the anxiety away. I do hope this helps. Please also look into any state aid that you can get. Hugs and blessings xx

[Wild Coyote]

Welcome back to PC!

I am sorry about your current situation. Life can become very overwhelming in a hurry. Renting out a room might be a good option? Please re-think your choices re: a life partner, as it is important a life partner helps out. I am sorry you do not have support from your current BF. Keep posting so we can support you.

I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.
Please make yourself at home. Jump in wherever you feel led to do so.

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I hope to see you around the forums.


WC