Anxiety Daily Check-In point #6

I think it was just anxiety. I took a 3rd Xanax and I didn’t feel like I was going to die.

I am worried right now to set foot out on my own block.

There was a dog running loose last night that repeatedly attacked my own as we walked not far from my house. The attack went on for more than 15 minutes as I had to repeatedly use my own body - and kick at - in order to block it from my own. It took all that time to get myself and my dog back up the street to my home all the while the other kept circling and charging. It got several bites in on my dogs hind end and got a hold of his tail. His owner eventually came out and when seeing me try to kick it away got of course very hostile and I had my own confrontation to deal with. Finally I got my dog inside the house. I checked him over and he is okay. My dog is pretty furry and the other was very small. I could find do indication of any broken skin. But he was really shaken up as was I. I called Animal Protections Services who called the police. I saw them go to the home.

And here now lies the problem.

I am terrified right now to leave my home - and I have a dog whining desperate to be taken for a walk to relieve himself. The other owner saw what house I went into and now knows what kind of car I drive. I am terrified there is going to be some sort of retribution. I really need to take my dog out.

In distress today but not exactly anxious.

I have to go to the supermarket and as always I am terrified to leave my house. I better do it now, that keep suffering for the outcome. Very high anxiety.

I went to the mall this evening and I never go to the mall at night. I usually just go in the morning as soon as they open or shortly after they open, but I don’t let my anxiety control my life. Plus I was dying for some Sbarros. But there were packs of middle schoolers everywhere that were giving me the heebie jeebies and some guy in the parking lot had road rage and was yelling at a lady and calling her a *****. I made it though.

I am good today. But then, I don't have to go out, not today.

A bit worried because I requested a refill for my Prozac through the pharmacy, but I haven't received a call back from my doctor and it has been two days.

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I hate when my doctor forgets to call in a prescription. He only ever does it with my Xanax and it drives me insane. He takes 2-3 days to call it in and I’m worried he’s all of a sudden deciding not to prescribe it anymore.

My anxiety is currently a little bit high because I am getting a new manager tomorrow. I just have to keep reminding myself that if I keep doing what I’ve been doing I won’t have an issue.

I have high anxiety all night long and still going on right now. The reason was an apartment for tomorrow. I canceled because I know I will not be able to drive there, that makes me feel miserable, I failed badly.

Tomorrow is a new day.

I have to go to my doctor this week because they didn't want to give me a refill for my Prozac over the phone.

I had a lot of health issues/anxiety this morning. I ended up calling into work. My doctor wasn’t too helpful. Then this afternoon my coworker texted me in a full blown panic attack state. I’m not too good with this whole social, having friends thing so I was trying my best to calm her down and saying the correct things while also dealing with my own physical pain and anxiety. I currently feel a lot better anxiety and pain wise because I put a pretty hot towel on my neck for 15 minutes straight. I’m a bit sick to my stomach from a drink I had from Sonic though.

I wanted to see my psychiatrist but my mom is telling me it’s physical and not mental and he doesn’t have any openings anyways. My aunt who is a certified massage therapist is suggesting specific types of massages I should be getting. But my mom is telling me it’s physical and not anxiety and not something to go to the psychiatrist for. I still have swollen lymph nodes and stuff.

Today I was so anxious I was shaking.

Today I ordered groceries online and went to pick them up and it was wonderful to not have to go in the store to shop. Never knew realized in the past what agoraphobia was and in the past I experienced panic and anxiety when walking in the mall by myself. Now I go to a mall that is not very busy and go to only a few stores and it’s much better.

I went yesterday to the clinic to get my Prozac prescription and it was okay. I used to love going there, but now there's new owners.

My anxiety is getting worse! I can feel myself feeling panicky.

My anxiety was high today. I felt like I was being pretty needy. I felt like I was saying the wrong things and acting weird. I feel better now but I did have to take 2 Xanax. It will be a disaster if my doctor ever decides to stop prescribing it.

Very high anxiety waiting to hear back from this job. It's the worst it has ever been. I don't usually get anxiety, but today I was close to tears.

today while I was walking to the shop I heard a bumble bee
I'm alergic to them, so I called out their's a bumblebee, someone help me, and the nearest woman walking down the path goes no their isn't

and at that moment the bumblebee flew off the poll it was resting on and went for the woman

me: it's right above you, and if you step aside, it's going to probably go for me

so scared!

Bumble bees are actually not agressive as you may think (wasps are more likely to sting you for no reason though). They will only sting if they feel threatened, and only as a last resort. I understand you have an allergy to them so your phobia is rational. It's like how the average human would only kill another human if there's no other option. They do usually die when they sting after all.

100+ days with no attacks. My heart works, and my conscience is clear of guilt. But still have trouble speaking at critical times, especially in front of groups or when discussing my mental health and needs. Extreme fears of physical and emotional attacks are a regular occurrence for me and all I can think to do is cope with high concentration of chocolate and puppy love. But my heart hurts and I feel I will never fully be accepted anywhere and do not see the point in trying anymore. I've removed as many stressors from my life as possible, but negativity forcefully floods in. I can only create so much of my own energy. I feel emotionally drained. Well, 100+ days with no attacks. Is that a good enough goal?

100 days is amazing! On the other things...progress is perfection. Keep walking forward and loving yourself.

I’m kind of anxious right now but in general I was fine today.

I was shaking from anxiety again today.

I don’t even know if what I’m feeling is anxiety or what it is.