Anxiety Daily Check-In point #6

Yesterday I fell apart a little bit. I posted (and deleted some) and I talked it out with my husband. My anxiety was bad. Today will be better.

I thought I was doing ok but now my anxiety is rising with my headache, it makes my head feel tight.

A video I ran across in my FB feed (first time I have been on FB for weeks). I like the funny parts. Her anxiety is really bad so I thought many here might relate. I can relate to the parts about not speaking up and telling myself what happened was really for the best anyways....
Jae Nichelle - "Friends With Benefits" @WANPOETRY (TGS 2017)

My anxiety is very bad at the moment.

I have already had extra valium from the GP and I don't want to become addicted.

Coping strategies help for a short time only.

I really need a break.

I had some anxiety last night because I couldn't find my nail clippers (they arn't where they usually are)

I even had someone look this morning... can't find them!. I really hope they turn up though as they belong to me, and I hate it when my stuff goes missing

i did well on the test. I haven't received the result yet since it takes 14 days, but I'm a little confident. I'm not going to get a high score, but at least it is good enough to pass.

On the other side my anxiety doesn't stop. I thought that it'd go away once I finish the test, but my mind moved to other documents that I need to take care after the test. I've made a timeline for this full month. I guess my anxiety will stay until then.

Can you force yourself to take a day off (take a 24 hour break from gathering docs)? Once we get going, it IS hard to slow down.

An anxious dream woke me up around 1:30 AM and I was anxious until I was finally able to get a little sleep a few hours later. That nap fixed the anxiety! It is going to be a great, no stress day. My TO DO list is very small. Resting. So key.

Based on current symptoms I’m hoping I’m not getting a UTI from my fear of public restrooms. I know waiting sometimes up to 9 hours is bad. But I’ve never had any problems. Who knows, maybe getting a UTI will be enough to cure my fear.

I don't feel particularly anxious today, so I'm doing alright.

Whew! I am so glad it is over.

I have a fear of heights - not natural heights like cliffs and that sort of thing but man-made heights. I will have no problem rock climbing but I can't go up a tower. A ski lift is agony and so on.

Last night we went to a concert but the whole thing presented a great deal of anxiety - the stupid kind. I was fearful for days before the concert over the idea of managing the stairs up to the arena second level. This venue is reknowned for having stupid small steps with no hand railings to grab onto. Add in the human built height thing and it was terrifying the idea in advance I would have to negotiate them. Then the anxiety throughout the concert that not only would I have to somehow get back down after the evening but that I might have to relieve myself and be required to get down in the dark. Oh the concert was great but I my great worry really took away from it.

I am experiencing an elevated anxiety on account of several reasons this morning.

- it is my boyfriend's most stressful time of year as he is undergoing the annual audit of his work this week and he knows it won't go well (he went from a department of three to just himself in the last three months and he hasn't been able to keep up)
- add to his distress he has emergency dental work to contend with amidst it all
- our camping road trip begins this weekend and I feel really nervous and apprehensive
- I have a great deal of errands to run which is already stressful and one of them is entering the stupidity and crowd at Costco.

Sigh, I just need to get through until Monday, when we should have reached our destination.

I had a stressful day. My expectations are too high at work. I want to do exceptional work, but too much is out of my control. My therapist wants me to accept the way things are at my job and not continually fight it. All that results from that fight is higher anxiety. That isn't a battle I will win.

When I woke up this morning I really freaked out and burst into tears. I have a court case coming up and I really needed to send my husband a message on his phone and my phone was flat. I didnt think it would charge up in time and I thought the worst.

It doesn't work. My timeline doesn't work. I was planning to finish he remaining documents each week. I scheduled one on this Saturday, so I don't have to take a leave from work. But I just found out that it can't be processed because they take holiday on weekend. Now, I'm one document behind. I have less than two weeks.

All I can blame is the wrong schedule information.

It's possible to work on the remaining documents at the same time. It'll take less than a week, but costs on my leave days. And since the places (for processing both documents) are far, I'm scared if I couldn't make it on the same day and took more leave days. I'm afraid my work performance would be declined and have my tasks stacked due to my absences.

Absolutely awful this morning.

I was already anxious about something and then my boyfriend said an absolutely simple thing that ought not to have been problematic but was a major trigger to my PTSD (how was he to know that mentioning the name of a city would have caused such a reaction). The next thing I was throwing up everywhere over and over and over again and my knees knocking together in panic. I have taken a PRN and slept. I feel better. I cannot blame him.

I have a brand new newborn and work is hell. I try to help mommy but the baby is up all night. I've never been this anxious

Here I am again, venting, ranting, and complaing about the same thing everyday.

I wish it's Tuesday already. I'm going to take a leave and completing two of the remaining documents.
I feel so agitated thinking it'll gone wrong somehow.

My anxiety has been elevated over the last few days, I managed to go shopping earlier. It started because my mom can't walk properly due to hip pain and she doesn't want to go out that much.

I have been very anxious recently about one of my best friends moving to new zealand

despite her going on june 12th, I don't get to see her that often and I worry that I won't get to see her much because of her final arangements (travel, packing, etc etc)

plus: my all ready failing support network loses another member

ugg

I fell asleep early last night before taking my anxiety medicine. So I woke up at 2 AM with anxiety.

I am worried about things that aren't going to happen this morning. It would be nice if I could use that energy for positive thoughts instead of worry.

I finished the second document. Unfortunately, the third one needs a few days to be processed, approximately on Friday. My test result will also be delivered on the day.

Now I get a new anxiety. I get anxiety if the delivery man delivered my test result to the wrong address. I get anxiety if the customer service wrongly processed my document as the requirement request.

Moreover, my new phone "will be delivered" tomorrow. I'm so worried because I read a lot of complains on the site I ordered, despite it is an authentic, reputable webstore. It adds my anxiety.

I wish I could stop my anxiety over small things.

I went out shopping today to two different stores. I managed to get what I needed but it gave me a lot of anxiety and I still feel drained even though I've been home for a while now.

I am not schizophrenic or anything like that. But I thought there was someone in my house with me and I was home alone. I haven’t felt actual fear like this in years. I was downstairs in the basement and I could hear all this noise upstairs that sounded like footsteps and banging. I first heard it in my moms room and was just trying to ignore it. Then I heard it in the kitchen and I just felt very scared. I was texting my mom I said “I think there’s someone in the house. I’m not joking. I’m going out the garage door and waiting for you outside.” My mom hurried home. I saw the neighbor who lives a few doors down walking around outside. When my mom came home and I told her about the neighbor wandering around she thinks he may have been banging on our door multiple times trying to get her to answer about some work she was thinking of having him do. But I swear that was the worst scare I have had in years.