Anxiety Daily Check-In point #6

I am calm. I've been working on music and sleeping a lot.

I am really worried about my friend jonathan.

he has a heart condition, and neither him or his family have checked in with me all week to tell me how they are. what makes this worse is that last time: I was told he was dying, and could his family please have my email address, just in case

@raging vortex, sorry to hear about your friend. I hope he is Okay. My thoughts are with you. (((Hugs)))

thank you. will be sure to let you know when I hear something

I am fine this morning. Maybe a little tired but I am calm. I will probably go back to bed soon. My day looks like an easy one.

I'm really anxious at the moment. I am convinced something bad is going to happen, and I've just forgotten what it is. Makes me feel the same as exams coming up or some scary social situation. Just now my chest suddenly closed up and it got hard to breathe fully. Does anyone else get this? Randomly it feels like something is squeezing my upper chest, so I can breathe but never take in a full breath. It's not asthma or an actual sickness, it's more like pressure.

I have a headache and these deep muscle aches. Who knows what it is. I’m not exactly tired although this morning I was and slept until 8.

I mean, eventually it’s gonna come knocking at everyone’s door.

I'm feeling very anxious this evening. My AC was acting up and maintenance came over to have a look. We both wore masks, but it was hard to do social distancing the whole time. He was going in and out and I had to open the door for him. I'm really worried. At first he wasn't wearing a mask. I asked if he had one. He did. If's he not making a habit of wearing the mask, that's bad news. I will have to distract myself so I don't worry so much.

I have been taking Zoloft 50mg for two weeks now. I don't see much of the difference now since I have been told it takes a while. I'm worried.

My anxiety is pretty bad today. I can’t remember if I’ve taken 2 or 3 Xanax. I think it was 2. One at 6AM and then one at 4PM. But maybe the one at 6AM was yesterday morning? I honestly have been having a lot of trouble with my memory lately and it’s been very concerning and frustrating.

My anxiety has really been rough since last night. Today sucked, too. That didn’t help.

I feel calm this evening. Just a little tired and ready for bed. But I am concerned that I won't sleep well.

I'm worrying and procrastinating about my application.
I haven't applied again for more than a week now. I am tired with rejections. Even if I got accepted, I will get rejected again since I have certificate yet. Due to corona the institution which hold the test is still closed.
I should keep applying. My application would not applying by itself. But, still....
I think I need rest.

I'm a little anxious this morning. But only because I'm so sleepy. I sleep 30 minutes and then wake up. I try to drink coffee. Nothing is helping. I wish I could go for a walk.

I’ve felt a lot better today after a good nights rest, working, and making time to do what I like to do.

This virus is freaking me out. I heard that 3% of the population could die. But also that there’s going to be treatments by the fall. It’s just confusing. And now my mom has a Labor Day vacation set up in one of the hotspots. Also my inflamed acne is still not better and right now it’s acting up and itching.

I was parking my car but a stupid man started to stare and make funny noises. I started to have an anger panic attack and just wanted to follow him and make funny noises to him too. My anxiety is may be not normal I think. May be is a mix psicosis.

I'm calm this morning. I'm just a little sad and lonely at the moment. I'm sure once I get involved in something I'll feel better. I'm just feeling my feelings right now.

My head won’t shut up.

I had an anxious moment a while ago.Other than that I'm working on my homework. Its definitely my thoughts causing some anxiety.

My anxiety was sucky today. I took a combo Xanax and visteral at 11. No clue if those 2 can be mixed but I’ve been doing it since December and haven’t died yet. But that seemed to somewhat lower my anxiety, and this afternoon I’m ok.

I felt a little anxious this morning. I was feeling overwhelmed by all I had to do. But things are looking better now. I feel calmer.

The only time I got anxious today was when I thought about the virus and how it’s affecting the 19-30 year old age group. The thoughts are not constant so neither has my anxiety. I guess I’d rate my anxiety at about a 5 today. I just took anxiety meds so I’m probably not judging it best.

I’m being honest with those closest to me. I will be going to therapy.

I really wish I didn't keep thinking that people were whispering about me and talking about me behind my badck.

struggling with that a lot today