[Perna]

I've been battling with my asthma and a cough related to it for going on a couple weeks now (since just before Christmas) and have been working on New Year resolutions this last week.

Well, I discovered, thinking about it this morning, that a couple days ago I had the opportunity to make some good headway on my resolutions and was feeling really good about myself and, at the same time, I've been feeling a lot better and my asthma is making good strides in getting better (I was worrying too because I was using my asthma inhaler slightly more than I am supposed to and was afraid I'd run out before I would be allowed to renew it). But I also noticed that yesterday I was thinking about a project where I'm "stuck" and frustrated, a school problem, and related other plans and I realized I was anxious thinking about them.

Anyway, it occurred to me this morning that my getting better so well might have something to do with making headway on my new years plans versus my being stuck and trying to avoid other things? But some of those things I'm working on anyway, figuring out what to do to get me unstuck, and I don't think that is hurting me but rather helping me too, even though it's working on things I don't want to.

So, I'm going to add this anxious/energy stuck/unstuck ideas set of experiences to my things to work on and see if I can come up with ways to help myself with my anxieties in ways that will get me to always choose to work on my anxieties. Kind of like knowing that when you eat poorly your health suffers and, when realizing it, automatically doing things to eat better so you feel better. If I can identify small anxiety creating situations and automatically work to correct them, maybe some won't get so big.

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You're on a role Perna!