Desperately looking for help!

Female, 29
Symptoms started 6 months ago with a panic attack (related to breathing)

[ ] Recurring Panic attacks (has happened atleast 5 times but recently occurred in more frequency)
• Each panic attack keeps happening in waves and last over a couple of days
• Starts with a breathing stopping/heart or stomach sinking or stopping kind of feeling
• Aggrevates on thinking that this is inevitable now
• Feel weird chilling sensation in waist (like in diaphragm area) and sometimes in chest
• Feels like IF I will stop manual breathing then I will die
• Heart rate reaches 150+ and hyperventilation occurs
• Sweating in underarms and palms
• Feet turns cold, hands fluctuates with hot and cold feeling
(ECG & 2D-Echo tests came out normal)

[ ] Whole day symptoms
All muscles and nerves in body either twiches/vibrates whole day or have irritable burning sensation sometimes in sides of waist, sometimes in back, sometimes in thighs
Knees once felt like they are burning whole day and night and next day skin and muscles around knees felt like sunked in
Breathing feels very restricted whole day
Unable to take deep breaths due to tight feeling right below ribcage
Heart rate is elevated mostly throughout day

[ ] Sleeping
Body never feels at rest
Sometimes lying down on bed feels like will get panic attack kind of feeling
Sleep has been 5-6 hours only in a stretch, after waking up all muscles twitch and get muscle soreness, not able to get up easily from bed.
Moment eyes are opened, gets twitching and hot sensation in throat

[ ] Eating
• After eating hot food or tea feel extremely annoying electric vibrations in neck, arms and abdomen
(Endoscopy and barium swallow came back normal)

[ ] Psychological
• Very demotivated, sad, depressed and feel helpless
Sometimes feel like dying is better than going through all these things everyday
Not able to concentrate, think, have pleasant thoughts, feel hapiness as these emotions take a direct toll on my body. It seems like my already fast beating heart cannot cope up with these emotions.

Recent blood report shows
>> Slightly elevated TLC, platelet count and lymphocytes
>> Slightly elevated ESR, cholesterol
>> Pre-diabetic fasting sugar, although non-fasting is normal
>> Full body checkup revealed sludge in gall and 2 cysts in ovaries
>> Had trouble during SVC while doing PFT.

Diagnosis by other doctors so far
>> with Gerd in July, August
>> with IBS in October
>> UTI and anxiety in November and then was recommended to visit a psychiatrist

Welcome to MSF...


So sorry for your suffering.

Yes, it's good you've been referred to a psychiatrist. When is your appointment?

I just discovered the work of Dr. Claire Weekes, book "Hope and Help for Your Nerves". If you can't find the book at the library, you can always check out abebooks.com for a secondhand copy. It is also available in an audiobook format.

She is also on YouTube.

I honestly wish I had discovered her work years ago. I hope it helps you.

Keep us posted on how you're doing...

Thanks for suggesting the book, I've started reading it and honestly feels like this will help as it's actually talking about the nervous shock which I've been telling my Doctors since June!!
It all Started when I took a cold shower immediately after intense workout. When I came out, suddenly I felt like I'm not able to breathe. My sweating stopped abruptly (usually I sweat for sometime even after shower) and I turned pale. I did not faint but was not able to breathe properly for many hours after it. Never felt normal after that moment.
It was not a scary incident but I think my brain/body overreacted.
Appointment with Psychiatrist is on Saturday.

(((ya)))

Hope it goes well with the psychiatrist. It's good the book is helping you, too.

Hang in there and let us know how it goes...