[sup_sarah]

It's been awhile. I didn't really see a thread that was just about this so I thought I'd start a new one. Just for OCD and people dealing with it. I have it horribly and it's nice to talk to others about it so I figured other people would want to do the same.

As for my OCD right now, blah, it sucks. But I finally talked to somebody about it so I guess that's a big step forward.

How's everyone else? lol

Hi! Great idea. I have OCD, and don't see many posts about it( I lurk here daily, hardly post).

That's good you're talking to someone about it. I'm about to start therapy again, in a couple of weeks. Maybe I can open up and be honest this time. I already have a list going of things to tell her, embarrassing as they are!

So, why does your OCD suck now? Is it mostly mental or physical compulsions you have?

I'm frustrated right now, as my luvox is making me feel agitated big time after upping it a couple of weeks ago. It's driving me insane. My pdoc said * I wonder if it's making you manic*. I don't know, how could I? Arghhh!! (This is me right now, on drugs --prescribed).

Jen

[sup_sarah]

Aw, that's not good. I'd deffinetly talk to her about it.

My OCD is kinda balanced out between physical and mental. It's really really bad when it comes to numbers, it seriously drives me insane. Math is the worst, I've even like written numbers all over my paper before than had to erase them all before I turn my paper in. Ah, it's so frustrating. It's rough during school. I could probably tell you every number on every door or random spot in the school. The people in my study hall probably think I make fun of them or something all the time cause I have to look back at the clock and I have to look directly at them to do that cause the clocks behind me.

The physical parts me for me are getting worse and worse too cause nobody except for my best friend knows I have OCD and I keep touching stuff without thinking and it looks really obvious. I don't know, I'm just not ready yet for the whole world to know I have OCD.

We should talk about some of the "rituals" and stuff we have. If you're comfortable talking about them, this is probably the only place in the world I'd talk about mine.

[Gabby2007]

hi there. I've been recently diagnosed with OCD and it makes sense, although I'm really stuck in the angry stage why no one said this before....ahhh, maybe it wouldn't have made things easier who knows.

I've been fighting really severe anxiety about the last 24 hours...some times days in a row it's manageable with the zoloft I've been on for two months...then days like yesterday it hits me bad.

know what over? I bought a bird bath. There and it's so embarrasing. That's the only new thing I can think of...but then I started obsessing about where to put it and how deep to put the water and ---- then today I bought a few new perennials (we just moved and this is our first spring I'm redoing the whole front foundation....

and I'm really worried how to / where to put the plants and what to get and how it will all look in the end and a year or two from now.

the 'subject' of my anxiety is like a lazy susan, just spin it and pick a topic I can worry about.

maybe I'm not on the right dosage? I'm not nearly as depressed but the anxiety is just making it hard to get out of bed and make even the most simple decisions!

thanks for the topic! I'm not sure I'm sure what my 'rituals' are besides having to do things exactly the 'right' way or I go bezerk...is that what you mean? moving really ruined all my routines, my laundry room was laid out mirror image of our old house,

old house was (left to right) sink, washer dryer and here at our new house left to right it is dryer, washer sink...I could barely function down there, and had my husband put long hoses on the washer and putit on the left...can't move the sink, but having the washer on the left made it functional for me. don't know what that is all about!

hi i have had ocd since 2004 and find it hard still now and i've had different medication and stuff but it's hard to get control sometimes

[Katicka]

Hi, I have OCD too.. have had it most of my life actually along with bipolar disorder.

I dont take anything for it now since most antidepressents make me manicy.. I just deal with it as it comes and goes. Im moderately impaired by mine..

I have rituals and thinking OCD..

Some of my rituals include..
Fixing my hair and making sure its right and feels just right.. I usually go into the bathroom and look a ton of times after Im finished to make sure and to make sure everything overall is ok

I have indecisivensess about dressing.. Something has to be just right with no wrinkles or dirt on it.. It takes me a lot of time in the morning to pick something out to wear.. sometimes it takes like 3 hours since Im doing it over and over and it has to feel just right on me as well. I buy febreze too and have to spray it on my clothes usually before I leave somewhere..

Sometimes I have to say or write certain words over and over again too for no apparent reason or I have to sigh or swallow a few times until I feel comfortable and right.

I have a lot of obsessive thoughts too..

Fear of being responsible for every conflict that goes on in my life or negative event

Fear of doing embarrassing things (walking out n*k*d)

Thinking I have another illness or disease

A lot of horrific images of people suffering

Fear of touching others

Fear of saying the wrong thing or not saying it the correct way

Doubting everything over and over again

I used to have the compulsion when I was little to stand at the bottom of my stairs at night and count loudly to 1,000 and back.. I just had to do it to feel ok inside.. my parents were driven nuts by it..

Those are just some of my examples.

It sucks.. but I deal with it.. thats all I can do.

Gabby I know what you mean by the Lazy Susan thought.. My mind is totally the same way when it comes to that.

Thanks for the thread by the way as well. I didnt see any until I saw this one on OCD.. At least I know Im not alone..

[Carley_]

I just found out i have OCD, and i didnt relise but i have had it all my life pretty much. and well ya, i just wanted to know how it efffects other people, or if maybey it effects you the same way it effects me. =]

[ocdchick]

Happy Wednesday Katicky,

I can relate-I tend to feel responsible for stressful events-I wish real life was like the Peanuts strip where Lucy went around with a piece of paper and asked everyone to sign it, saying: "Sign this please; it absolves me from all blame." Near the end, Charlie Brown asked what it was and she said: "Whatever bad stuff goes on in the world, I'm not responsible for it!" Charlie responded: "That must be a nice document to have!" I'd have it laminated and carry it with me all the time.

On the other side, there's the times she always pulls out the football before he can kick it. One time, near the end of the strip, he's lying on the ground, looking at the sky, saying: "How long, O Lord?" and Lucy responds with "All your life, Charlie Brown. All your life."

I've had OCD all my life and it's worse with stress. Right now I'm facing the first anniversary (7/1) of my (again) boyfriend-he died unexpectedly at 49.

more later,

OCDC

[MegBrooks]

hey everyone i have horrible OCD and it's ruining my life nobody wants to do anything with me because i look like a freak walking down the street, avoiding sidewalk cracks and walking back a block when i step on one. i'm only 13 and i want someone with the same problems to talk to me. thnx

[OCDonaStick]

Hi! I have OCD as well and have decided to blog about it which is somewhat theraputic for me. I need to go, but will write more later.

[sup_sarah]

wow I haven't been on here in forever but I'm so happy that people enjoy this thread

well my OCD is pretty much as crappy as its ever been but I've decided to try and take control of it. Within maybe the past few months I've really found some techniques to chill me out when I absolutely 'need' to do something. Numbers are still impossible to manage for me but I've been trying to manage more of the touching and looking at things and it's really helped

What I've been doing is just closing my eyes and taking a few deep breathes and trying to convince myself that it's just the OCD thats making me do this. Well I'm not sure, but it's been working for me

Everybody feel free to post more and share your stories and thoughts, you're not alone! Hope everybody has a nice day and doesn't think too much about things

[Dawr]

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hey everyone i have horrible OCD and it's ruining my life nobody wants to do anything with me because i look like a freak walking down the street, avoiding sidewalk cracks and walking back a block when i step on one. i'm only 13 and i want someone with the same problems to talk to me. thnx

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I've never been formally diagnosed with OCD, but I do the same exact thing.

I avoid Cracks, lines, and "uneven" patterns.

I Can't step on them.
I Always thought I was the only person who did this

[SingDanceRunLife]

Yeah...I have OCD, and it sucks. I just started taking Prozac for it, and hopefully that'll help.

[Cyran0]

I have ocd but manage it pretty well. General anxiety is a bigger issue for me.

Cyran0