[Butterfly_Faerie]

<font color="brown">I'm getting anxious literally over anything... so much for that really postive post I did awhile back about anxiety and how I over came it.... If I get a little bit hot, it triggers anxiety, if my tummy is a bit upset for whatever reason I get anxiety... food still gives me a bit of anxiety, you guys know I had some issues surrounding that in the summer, but i'm not avoiding food much anymore. Yesturday afternoon I had anxiety just sitting on the couch at my Boyfriends house. I almost didn't go to turkey dinner with his parets, brother and his brothers girlfriend because I didn't know if I could make it through supper.. for some reason everytime I go and eat there during supper, get hot, instant anxiety... and i've been going there for over 3 years now, every sunday!!! So what's happening???? I was even crying last yesturday, with anxiety too and I eventually calmed down and went to dinner. Still had some anxiety though. The other day when my BF went mountain biking he left me the cell (since there is no landline at his house, by choice one less bill to pay) and at 6pm he wasn't back so I called his buddy that he went out with because this guy always has his cell on him but no answer, got the answering machine. So I was getting panicky almost in tears wondering where he was, why he wasn't back yet etc, he got hom like 20mins after that but I was frantic thinking the worse possible scenerio, even though I knew he'd be back, but the anxiety was still there...Even last night before I went to bed was getting anxiety and not sure why. Everything has been sucking lately... </font>

[Butterfly_Faerie]

<font color="blue">who gets tingling hands, or pins and needles with their anxiety or depression sometimes? </font>

[partlycloudy]

I get pins and needles too. I just can't predict at all when the anxiety is going to come up and wallop me. Yesterday was a good and I had lots of hope - today those darn butterflies are having a riot inside me.

I think it takes a lot of strength for us to keep going when our bodies are sabotaging us at every turn.

I'm on effexor, just got upped to 225mg, and I THOUGHT it was working. Plus my hormones are completely out of whack.

Hope you mind me whining.
pc

[Butterfly_Faerie]

My anxiety pops up but I can pretty much control but I am getting it more now then I have for awhile...

The tingling and pins & needles are gone, but I know if I start to think about it the tingling with start again.

My Pdoc has been wanting me too make an appt with my family doctor just to get a physical just to have a check up.

Haven't heard from that doctor yet.

[partlycloudy]

My p-doc had me get a pretty good workup for blood tests to rule out thyroid or liver problems. All that's left to check out are my hormones, which are putting me through my paces far worse that puberty ever did. I don't have a family doctor, just specialists for different parts of my body, LOL.

Then I had a bad experience with some alternative medicine practioners, so I feel like I lost all the ground (self confidence, self esteem) that I had gained over the past year.

We just have to hang in there. I'm rooting for you!
pc

[Butterfly_Faerie]

I have gone for blood work many times and everything came back ok. I had a bit of low iron but not enough to worry about...

Haven't gone recently though, I still have 2 or 3 sheets to bring in for blood work and haven't done yet, it's been sitting there for so long that i'd likely have to get my pdoc to make up another one for me.

I've had my thyroid and liver checked i'm pretty sure, if it's to with blood work i've pretty much done it all...

I have low confidence and self esteem issues as well, so trying to build that up.

I know more then anything that all this is contributing to the meds not working, general anxiety and depression, I was fine up to a couple of weeks ago, I felt myself sliding earlier but it didn't affect me until like 2 weeks ago roughly.

[partlycloudy]

I had a recent crash too. It makes you feel that no matter what drugs you put in your body, you are still going to fail. Where on earth do we get our control?? I can't BREATHE my way into inner peace - the demons keep chasing it away. I'm pinning all my hopes, as it were, on my hormones being messed up - but don't have any faith it can be repaired.
Sorry I'm so glum. It's that kind of night, I guess.

[Butterfly_Faerie]

It is hard, last night was the worse Panic I felt in ages, I wrote about it in the meds thread.