[jen1017]

I've been having panic/anxiety problems for the passed few weeks, and now I'm starting to feel odd.

I don't feel like myself at all anymore. I look in the mirror and I know it's me, but it doesn't seem like me. And my life seems odd too, like I don't belong to it, though I know I do. Everything just seems a little off.

Also, I've felt very emotionally numb since I've had my attacks. I don't feel happy/sad, or excited or anything. I don't look forward to anything. I'm never hungry and I don't enjoy food like I used to.

I find that all I am doing is sitting and thinking about my condition and how I feel and it feels like I'm going crazy. Like I can't turn my thoughts off. I'm always thinking about weird things like I'm just a thought inside of a body, and odd things like that.

And I keep thinking that I'll never get better because I'm always going to be thinking these things.

Has anyone else felt this way, or had these thoughts??

I'm beginning to give up hope for myself.

[need2bhappy]

I know exactly what you are going thru. I usually am a happy person that likes to see friends and workout and do things. The last few weeks my anxiety has gotten really bad. I'm just so upset with my self for letting it get so bad. I'm losing weight because I don't even want to eat, all I want to do is sleep the time away so I don't have to feel so messed up.

That's why I'm hoping by talking to other people hopefully we can support eachother and find things to help. I've started taking Zoloft which I hope will help it's been only a few weeks now. I also see a therapist but it can get expensive.

With my experience with anxiety it comes and goes so it will get better. No matter how hard it is I'm trying to focus on something else like yoga and work. Is there anything you used to really like doing that you think you could sorta get lost in again? I know you don't feel like you, but others still see you the same and that's what so hard sometimes and the fact that no one really gets how you feel.

Your not alone. Just know that and things will get beter. What exactly to you have anxiety about?

[jen1017]

I didn't really think I had anxiety/stress until I started taking a bunch of Panic attacks.

Honestly, I worry about not getting better. And I think about how I don't feel like myself anymore, which causes Anxiety.

I have just been trying to do things I used to like. I feel like my emotions are coming back a little, but I'm still kind of blah.

I feel like I won't ever truly be back to myself because I keep thinking about how I'm different now. Do you get what I mean?

[jen1017]

Originally Posted by need2bhappy

I know exactly what you are going thru. I usually am a happy person that likes to see friends and workout and do things. The last few weeks my anxiety has gotten really bad. I'm just so upset with my self for letting it get so bad. I'm losing weight because I don't even want to eat, all I want to do is sleep the time away so I don't have to feel so messed up.

That's why I'm hoping by talking to other people hopefully we can support eachother and find things to help. I've started taking Zoloft which I hope will help it's been only a few weeks now. I also see a therapist but it can get expensive.

With my experience with anxiety it comes and goes so it will get better. No matter how hard it is I'm trying to focus on something else like yoga and work. Is there anything you used to really like doing that you think you could sorta get lost in again? I know you don't feel like you, but others still see you the same and that's what so hard sometimes and the fact that no one really gets how you feel.

Your not alone. Just know that and things will get beter. What exactly to you have anxiety about?

I never thought I had anxiety or stress until I started having Panic attacks.

Now I get anxious over feeling strange and not myself. I feel like I'm always conscious that I'm different now. So I kind of feel like I can't get better. How will I stop thinking about feeling unreal? I don't think it's possible.

I am feeling less depressed than I was. I feel a bit more emotions, but still kind of blah. I still wake up feeling kind of lost and I feel like my future is kind of pointless.

I have been starting to get back into things I like. But I still feel off. I dunno how to explain it.

[Cthomas]

Welcome to pc. and welcome to my world....

Are you taking any meds or seeing a therapist? I am on a small dose of meds that seems to be working well for me. I also felt numb at one time, until my husband stepped up and told me what i was doing. I tried really hard, journaling, seeing a therapist and coming here.

Its working. slowly but its hope. and thats good enough for me.

I hope to get to know you better

Colleen

[jen1017]

I do see a therapist, but I"ve only seen her once since my panic attacks started.

[gimmeice]

Hello jen1017, it's nice to meet you.

I agree with the others you are not alone having these kind of thoughts, to me it seems to come in cycles of being real bad. My therapist always tells me not to get sucked into the cyclone by just letting the thoughts be just that thoughts, noticing what they are and letting them pass in there own time. This is something that I really struggle with, sometimes I have to just practice good self care, doing things for myself basically anything to relax me sometimes I can get so wrapped up in enjoying myself I can pull myself back out of the mess.

Welcome to psychcentral, this is a very supportive place I hope you find it as helpful as I do.

[jen1017]

Originally Posted by gimmeice

Hello jen1017, it's nice to meet you.

I agree with the others you are not alone having these kind of thoughts, to me it seems to come in cycles of being real bad. My therapist always tells me not to get sucked into the cyclone by just letting the thoughts be just that thoughts, noticing what they are and letting them pass in there own time. This is something that I really struggle with, sometimes I have to just practice good self care, doing things for myself basically anything to relax me sometimes I can get so wrapped up in enjoying myself I can pull myself back out of the mess.

Welcome to psychcentral, this is a very supportive place I hope you find it as helpful as I do.

Thank you!

Do you/did you ever think that you felt so different you'd never get back to yourself?

[ExiExi]

Hey, Jen. It's nice to meet you

My advice is to see a therapist and get proper treatment for this issue. At the same time, PC can give you a lot of warmth and support

The whole thing sounds like depersonalization disorder to me (but don't rely on my words too much - I just read about it somewhere).

I hope you will feel better soon
Exi