[BOOOOOM]

Yup.

Ever since I was in preschool, teachers told my parents that there was something wrong with me... never paid attention or seemed to react to discipline, always seemed distant and spacey. Literally school has been a living hell for me... I dropped out of high school and took online courses... HUUUUGE mistake, but I had cut more days of school than I attended, so there was no way I would graduate. I am so grateful to have the parents that I have, but trying to focus literally brings me to tears... sometimes I feel like I can't even read. As a result I lie to cover up missing work, and put things off to a pathological degree... if I push it out of my conscience I really don't give a ****. I always feel restless... I live in an apartment building and need to run up and down the hallways maybe 30 times a day. My neighbors think I'm crazy

I'm not just a dumb girl trying to make excuses for myself... I really see no future, and I don't want to rock the boat with my parents. Time is running out...I'm going to college next week and I have no faith in myself... I don't even have my high school transcript yet, and my mom told me that I'm shortening her life span. This has been going on for all 18 years of my life... there is a lot more but I'm don't want to depress myself writing about it... I'm a happy person, but every day I'm so full of guilt. I'm really scared... I need help

[BOOOOOM]

also also... I'm about to get in big trouble because my dad has finally outsmarted my techniques to avoid doing work... should happen soon tonight... my mom is so stressed out that I'm worried for her health. I feel so selfish and I am

[countryboy]

hey booooom,
Trust me when i say that I know what you're going through. I was 28 when I figured out what ADD is. I used it as an excuse ever since then. but, now i'm ticked off and tired of short-changing myself. I don't know yet what to do. but, we will figure it out!! By the way. I find that slow smooth music really helps me single my mind on one thing.

[Trying & Caring]

For me, I had to go on medication--Concerta & I don't think I could function without it. I had such strange studying habits. In college, I had to type my notes over & over again (I'm OLD--no computers)--somehow the touch helped me & then to read aloud. But I memorized the whole textbook as I couldn't differentiate what was "important." My husband (we were together in high school & college) told me to highlight what WASN'T IMPORTANT as I would highlight the whole textbook.

Hours & hours of memorizing--typing--reading aloud. My room-mate in college moved out as she couldn't stand my typing all night long.

But the strain of it all (got on medication when I was 48 yrs. old!) was too hard & I had to drop out of college even though I had a 4.0. Too hard to maintain. Couldn't do it anymore...

[aidaleigh]

Booooom, have you talked to a dr about this? Have you officially been diagnosed with ADD? Are you on meds?

If you have not been to a dr about this, then most certainly do it. Being officially diagnosed with ADD and being on meds had been a totally life changing (for the better) experience for me.

[bluebird2]

BOOOM:

Here's a story. I would always talk to someone for a few minutes and not really connect or anything, just a brief chat. I was later surprised to hear that he felt pretty close to me.

When I started ADHD meds, I talked to him, and - wow - realized that he actually wanted to talk to me. It was a weird realization, but we had an extended conversation.

You absolutely need to see a competent doctor who can guide you and help you. College is hard, and so is life. Getting some good backing is an excellent decision.

[LostnSpace]

Originally Posted by BOOOOOM

also also... I'm about to get in big trouble because my dad has finally outsmarted my techniques to avoid doing work... should happen soon tonight... my mom is so stressed out that I'm worried for her health. I feel so selfish and I am

BOOOOM,
I fully understand what you are going through, I am a sophomore in college, however, I am 24. I hated school, couldn't focus, ALWAYS put things off until I was so stressed out that I thought the roof would literally collapse on me=and I even secretly wished it would. If you are not on medication, I would highly reccommed seeing a doc. I was put on Adderoll and have had quite a bit of luck with that. I feel however that my dose isn't high enough, or I'm just slowly losing it because I am feeling myself getting back into some of my old bad habits. I start a bunch of small projects to keep myself busy and then get mad, and overwhelmed when I am not finishing them in a timely manner. Hang in there. I am new to this forum stuff, but what can I say...sometimes misery NEEDS company!

[theotterone]

You need to see a mental health professional, make sure you are diagnosed correctly, THEN you know what you are dealing with. I am 34 now, but at age 10 they didn't know there was an "inattentive type". I went 24 years thinking something was fundamentally WRONG with me. If you know what is wrong, you can do something about it!

Hang in there, and know you have support here.

[atrain09]

Have you tried talking to a doctor about this and possibly going on medication for add/adhd? What also works is having therapy and talking to your school about what they can help you with your problem?

[emailer_1999]

This is my first day posting and it amazes me how those of us experiencing AD/HD have got so much in common. Same troubles in school, inability to focus, procrastination and the accompaning low self esteem leading to anxiety and depression. I very much appreciate those who take the time to offer their input and problem solving skills. Glad I joined.

[leonesse lafferty]

hey every1 my name is leo (female) thankgod for google soooo glad i found this website its so great knowing im not yhe only 1 suffering in silance

[anc1902]

Im in a rough spot msyelf. I've been on ritalin and concerta m whole life for severe add and adhd but it affected my mood too much so i've been on and of of it. The weeks that im on it im miserable, have terrible headaches, but am incredibly productive and confident in my work. The weeks when im off im happy and stupid, and all of my activities blend in to a mush nof a waste of frustrating time. This isn't smething you can get over, you have to go see someone and get help