[11Iseethefuture11]

I am going to start out by saying the different things that I suffer from.

Severe depression (I am suicidal often)
ADHD (I cannot focus on ANYTHING, from video games, to projects, to signing up for classes)
OCD (I get fixated on stupid things, I tend to get fixated on my ADHD, and it throws me into a vicious cycle which leaves me extremely frustrated, and often to the point of suicidal)
I'm not sure if I'm bi-polar but I do have wild mood swings that are affected by the conditions above.
Anxiety.

I do have a job, and I ride my bike once a week (usually around 40 miles) when the weather permits.

I have many hobbies (video games, computer building, 3D modeling, cycling) I just can't focus on any of them anymore.

I'm a lonely person because I get social anxiety when I'm around strangers, despite being an extremely extroverted and friendly person.

I missed going to class this past semester because I couldn't get myself to focus on registering. I might not be able to sign up for classes this upcoming semester either, I'll know on the 3rd.

I can't keep going like this, I procrastinate on EVERYTHING. I push everything off and am often too late. I can't focus on anything. I can't live like this. I need to get control of my problems, and move on with my life. I need help.

I'm having alot of trouble myself at the moment...lately and what seems like even quite a while...especially focusing and sticking with a positive thought...something that can move me forward and help me climb out of the mess....which has similar characteristics to what you are experiencing.

I have no suggestions apart from writing things down like you have...on here,
because I relate to it...and others can and most likely will.

even just responding to you here has helped me to focus just a little outside of my own dis-functioning, or mal-functioning (not dis-functional) mind.

yep

[AniManiac]

Sorry you're feeling like everything is out of control - it's a tough place to be.

Have you been formally diagnosed with any of the things you've mentioned above? Some of the symptoms you mention could be "normal" but it's so hard to judge, which is why that's best left to professionals. If you've been diagnosed, are you in treatment? That really should help - and with ADHD, it's usually just meds and maybe a little therapy or coaching to help you develop some better habits. Honestly, for all the disruption it can cause, the treatment for ADHD is no big deal (especially compared to mental illnesses...)

Having hobbies and not being able to focus on them "anymore" suggests depression, and social anxiety could as well. In fact, a lot of of the things you mention could be signs of depression, depending on the specifics, and winter time is the worst for a lot of people's depression. So if you haven't yet seen a doctor, you really should consider making an appointment for formal evaluation; a therapist or coach might help too.

Hope things improve soon - it's hard to guess what might be helpful, but there are lots of things to try.

[MurdockPuck]

I sooooooooo understand what you are going through!!!

I have severe depression and ADD also. For me it is a daily battle... You see I have the attention span of a nat! And that mixed with depression is extreamly frustrating.

If you have not been diagnosed then you should look into it. If you don't agree with your doctor then I suggest getting a second oppinion. Doctors are people too and can make mistakes, I know this all to well. I am being treated for my depression and ADD, but I am still suffering. I am going to ask my doctor what else I can do when I see him next week... You see, it's all trial and error. Remember, doctors are just "practicing physicians", and are no means perfect. And it makes it tough for them to diagnois and prescribe correctly because everyone is so different. What works for one person may be disasterous for another, and what looks like depression or ADD in one person can look completely different in another. It is alway good to get a second oppinion.

I hope my rambling has helped.
Hugs

[RonPSH]

Originally Posted by 11Iseethefuture11

I am going to start out by saying the different things that I suffer from.

I'm a lonely person because I get social anxiety when I'm around strangers, despite being an extremely extroverted and friendly person.

I can't keep going like this, I procrastinate on EVERYTHING. I push everything off and am often too late. I can't focus on anything. I can't live like this. I need to get control of my problems, and move on with my life. I need help.

You sound like me....

Did you read my story? http://www.profound-self-help.com/adhd-self-help.html

Check out a guy named Osho and see if he rings true with you. All of us try to adjust to society as though society is healthy and whole. It's not, it's sick and fragmented.

Just be you.

[11Iseethefuture11]

Thanks everyone, I think I'll go to my doctor and talk to him about it and see if I can get this taken care of.

[AniManiac]

Originally Posted by MurdockPuck

If you don't agree with your doctor then I suggest getting a second oppinion.

I agree - in the past sometimes I haven't described my symptoms well enough, so I wasn't being clear about how bad things were, and also didn't know what symptoms to mention because I didn't know they weren't normal.

ADHD was a much easier diagnosis than bipolar (I had 5 evaluations in under a year before I'd believe it) but I've still been re-evaluated for ADHD at least 4 times over the last 10 years when I've gone to new doctors and therapists. The fact that they come up with the same explanation every time, and that the meds help, is pretty convincing.