I can't do anything, can i?

They can have all the action. Just do it in doors. I have never had any action and intend to keep it that way. Action gets you into trouble.

oh. i see... that sucks. suddenly, i feel bad for asking. sorry.

It is perfectly fine. You asked a question. I supplied an answer. Nothing wrong with that. I never knew him before he shot himself. I always knew him when he was blind. So to me it was normal. I did not learn of the suicide attempt until way later. I was only 4 yrs old when he tried. Learning of it did not change my point of view of him. The only thing it did change was that he was trapped in a shell and really had no escape from. I happy now he finally has peace. It just seemed miserable the way he had to live. I probably should have felt sad for him, I dunno. But really for me the emotion he is finally free from whatever shackled him down and no longer has to be trapped. Really could only feel happy for him in the fact, now he is free. When my great grandmother died, I did feel sadness then. I guess for me it is whatever emotion I feel is the frontrunner and what I do feel. I really have no room for any other emotion it seems. I need to practice and learn how to fake emotions so I can make the people around me see that I care.

Also, not trying to belittle or badger you or anything, but I don't know why people get touchy or after the fact feel sorry things. For some people things like this may be touchy subjects, but ya know, it has already happened, it is in the past, I really do think that it is bad to force things down like this and like a black rose, you cannot change why happened or how it happened, I am not saying that you should tell everyone and there brother, but if someone asks. Tell how it happened. Every family has deep dark secrets. I just do not think it is good to hide it away as if everything will fall apart if people know, if you will not tell them, then they will sneak around and try to find out. Just tell them so they know and solve them sneaking around and stuff. I dunno my weird opinion

Yeah, that makes sense. when i said i felt bad, it wasn't so much that i felt like i'd offended you. it just became more "real" when you said it. i felt bad for the situation, i guess. for him. but still, my question was pretty forward. i am glad you weren't offended by it.

That is ok. I like people who ask forward questions instead of beat around the bush. You got something to say, say it. something to ask, ask it

I get it now. I did not notice that you felt bad for him mostly. I am with you there. It is true. I t was sad for him. But he finally release from that situation all those years ago.