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Im not in school right now (due to rehab reasons) but my mom still makes me do schoool work, which i say is reasonable, and if i could do it, i would. BUT I CANT. i cant read, i cant focus, i get headaches and when i try to do the work i just breath really hard and go into a panic attack. it happened JUST YESTERDAY! and she STILL wants me to try. shes taking awa privilages until i do it too. it just pisses me off. i HATE being Dxd, and being given medication, but she still had NO PROBLEM sending me away through MY TEARS to treatment centers, and she has NO PROBLEM shoving pills down my throat wen i get upset. i just want to be DXd and given meds for this, so i can read a frikin menu with out being distracted, and so i stop loosing things and so i CAN DO MY %#@&#! HOMEWORK!! its ridiculous. even my psychiatrist said i most likely have this, i just was the meds, and the DX so i can get on with my life. and my mom wont stand for it, when she didnt mind DX me with border line, BP, historionic or something like that, severe depression, and 1 other thing i forget. it is so stupid. SHE IS BEING UNREASONABLE. i am very mature, and so even if i dont want to do omething, but i know inside that its really not that unreasonable, ill say so, because theres no point in being dumb about something. BUT THIS IS DUMB. and i know it. wut do i have to do to make her realize? i have np problem cutting or using or drinking, if thats wut it takes ID LOOOVE TO DO IT FOR HER. ugh. i just cant do my schoolwork. ive tried, but yesterday after the panic attack, im giving p. dont even tell me not to give up. because its too late.

Hello Emily I am sorry you are upset at this time. I feel that your mother thinks she is trying ot help with the pills. If you tell your Dr and therapist how you are feeloing there is medication available that may be able to help you concentrate better. Do you have glasses? I had to get glasses when I started taking medication and maybe you need to try to get your eyes checked as well,a nd there are some really NICE looking glasses out there for young people. I hope the best for you try to calm down and see if your mother can call your Dr and see if there is somehting that can be done for your concentration so you dont have to be this upset all of the time. Take care Soidhonia

Emily, that sucks.

What do you think would help you the most? Let's say you got your wish and your mom completely backed off and let you do whatever you want. What would you do to help yourself, if she wasn't interfering?

im sorry you are struggling with your school work right now, please try and talk to somebody, if you cant explain how you feel to your mum, they might be able to explain to your mum for you, also the advice about the eye test is a good one my daughter wears glasses and a few mths ago she strted having headaches which wouldnt go away with meds but was helped with the change of prescription with her glasses she is also dyslexic
again hope you can get through this

Sorry to see you're dealing with alot of stress.

Am I to understand that Mom won't entertain an ADD/ADHD diagnosis?

It can be frustrating, as you are well aware, when we have an intuition as to our Dx and others continue to treat us for something else. It sounds like you have a good bit of self awareness working for you amid all the stress. Try not to fall prey to the "I'll show HER, I'll hurt ME" trap. Keep working with your T and see if you can't persuade them to see your symptoms for what they are.

Good luck
and Peace to you.

_Breezer

honestly. i said screw school. end of story. i dropped out middle of 9th grade....emotional abuse came from not being able to do math, or homework or pay attention....just not interested. i got into independent study (one day a week to pick up and drop off work) first time in my life i ever got straight A's....but A.D.D. is harsh and turns out getting there when i was supposed to (being homeless at that time) got me dropped. got my GED. OMG. 3 hour test vs the misery of highschool!?!?! could i have had a chance to choose that instead of public ed? ooooof course not. jerks.

moral of the story is, you need to be interested and find significant reason to do an assignment. reports/projects are more interesting and offer creative outlets that allow you to shine (instead of get detention for no homework) but still......i only occasionally completed something assigned. i did a report of PA for a state report coz the presentation required us to cook/buy a food from the state....yah...mine was the hershey's state...so i was the popular one for once. HAHA. anyway. talk to you teachers about the reasonable accomodations they're supposed to make for those of us with our heads up our butts.

Do you play computer games? Ex. MMORPGS / first person shooters?

This makes ADHD/Anxiety MUCH worse