Adhd is so inconvenient

Have I come to terms that I can't change it? Yeah. Do I like it, no. The main symptom I have and most crippling being my trash memory, now I'm sure there's a better word/definition for that but that's the best I have. The worst part of this is that nobody ever believes me on how bad it actually is. I have forgotten my own birthday, important dates, what family members looked like before they passed, mind you they passed recently. And all that is just off the top of my head. I forget medications, appointments, homework. And I pretty much need my Adderall to function, so when I forget it's not good. And even then being on Adderall it's still not that good. I honestly just needed to vent that I guess, I hope nobody else feels this way because it sucks.

Welcome to MSF @HarmonyinSilence - I am sorry you have memory issues. That sounds really disruptive.

My friend has a brain stem injury and they have to write everything down.

Routines help me but I still like to make to do lists.

CANDC

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I’m so with you. I was on Adderall too and fairing better mentally/emotionally except people were concerned about the lack of appetite side effect and my eating disorder so I stopped taking it recently and, yeah, lack of appetite doesn’t cause my disordered eating—being a traumatized individual who thinks no matter how low the BMI she takes up too much space and resources does and punishment>/=love, now I’m just a shytshow and probably eat even less because I don’t know what time of day or what I should be doing half the time and dinner time comes and I stress that I didn’t get a thing done earlier when I was supposed to so I do that and say “fk it, no lunch, no dinner today I guess. That was easier than usual. Can’t have meal time anxiety if you’re too caught up in ADHD-inspired internal chaos to realize it’s mealtime.”

I am decent with memory, or not really but I have developed my own way of making sure I have reminders of the really important things everywhere and wear a watch that can notify me of a bunch of stuff. My issues with ADHD are more around hyperactivity/impulse and emotional control (and surprise surprise, I’ve had the word “hospital” for psych crisis situations brought up 4x since stopping it.)

Edit: actually 5 after this morning.

But I feel your pain man, it’s real and valid. ADHD can be so much more frustrating than people realize. It is way more than being easily distracted and not sotting still.

Despite it being an ongoing and likely permanent issue, I have found that alarms seem to work well, I guess the noise catches and retains my attention and I feel bad ignoring it so I usually do whatever the alarm says to do, hey whatever works right?