having a good morning but...

so I am for the most part just confused about somethings right now. I had a productive good morning I got up at a decent time and I got a lot done.

my boyfriend has returned home from his classes.

and he is telling me he is not in a bad mood but to me...he seems like he is....

but I have also recently had to come to terms with me having autistic behavior....and I know what a poor, poor judge of reading people I am...so I am not sure if I can believe what he is saying or not...

i really hate the fact I can not...read people and their emotions easier it freaks me out and makes me seriously want to stop even trying to interact with people for fear I am going fudge it up.

ok why do I think he is mad,
1.when he came home did not say much to me.

2.has a high level of volume in his voice when I asked him about school for the day.

3.admits gultitly that he lied to both me and a a friend of his about how much homework he has gotten done this week cause he feels bad and ashamed about A.Not doing it, B.procrastinating doing it and C.now lying to us about it in the first place.

he probably is nervous about his test, and is feeling poorly and guilty for his actions knowing it could come back to bite him in the butt and me bringing it up and not knowing ALL the details probably irritated him slightly and I noticed this.

when I asked him.

I guess I should give myself some props in that I can kind of read situations slightly better then I used...to but that's seriously only due to I make myself stop and accesses the situation instead of doing what I used to do in that I jumped the gun and went with my knee jerk reaction.

most of the time in day to day situations I still do that....

my dealing with my autism is going to be a long road I am sure...but hopefully it will get better.

so maybe you aren't reading it wrong, you are just communicating the identification of it wrong...he does not consider himself in a bad mood as you are reading it but he may be irritated in himself for the situation he has himself in which he doesn't consider the same thing. take care.

I think I am forcing myself to pay more attention cause I am more aware of my autism....and my lack of being able to read people but I know if I try I can do it better.