[Anonymous37919]

I'm angry, depressed and frustrated all rolled into one. I feel so very betrayed as well. Thus, this explains all my moaning on here as of late.

It stinks to high heaven of a conspiracy, though. That agency screwed me over in regards to two of my former female aides, then they have the nerve not to bother coming to court today. It to me is the same thing as treachery or abandonment. To hell with their services.

"So it's a blame game now. Oh well! We will just leave you flat in spite of the fact we as a company messed with your head and knowingly ruined your life. Will you mind?"

Yes. Idiots.

It will take a lot of time to heal from this pain. And they say time is a great healer.

Yeah. For some people!

[avlady]

I always wondered why the saying time heals because I don't feel healed from anything emotional in my life.

[avlady]

Maybe physical stuff heals but there are scars and such.

[avlady]

This doesn't have anything to do with this post but I just found out an old friend of mine died, that's another oNE that has to heal

[Angelique67]

Time does help distance you from emotional hurts, but the sting may be with you always. You just learn to live with it and hopefully move on. Good luck!!

[Anonymous37919]

Yeah. I kind of think using "philosophy" to help one get over something is stupid. Maybe it works for some people, but there are scars left over from the hurtful events. You are correct.

Well, I went to court today and found out the outcome has been deferred until in March. I also cannot return to my flat.

So here was me having staff take my belongings back there and then the judge defers the outcome and I am not getting any co-operation from the staff. It is almost as if they blackmailed me into either taken my support or them leaving me out to dry. Yeah, nobody bothered going to court apart from my mother.

I will tell you what: I will be scarred. This will fester inside of me for an eternity. All they had to do was sit down and talk over the primary issues, way back. Did they do that? No.

They purposefully lied. Or, at least Andrew did, but he left months ago, so I cannot say they all were responsible, but giving their attitude and all regarding my situation, they all are as bad as each other. Then it got worse after the judge put non-harassment orders in place. They all probably felt "saved" by it and I will be going to an advocate.

You can probably tell this is all I talk about these days. It 100% pisses me off.

[avlady]

im sorry for your situation peter a

[Anonymous37919]

There is no way I want to get booted out of that supported flat, but my lawyer told me I already have - by the court. My belongings are still there though, but I am going to have somebody write a letter to the court challenging this decision, because it is not fair to have me evicted over the drama they initiated in the first place. The question is, who the hell can help me now? I am screwed unless I can find a good advocate!

Today, I felt highly anxious and broke a cup. So my mother called the police to speak to me because I was 'getting too violent'. Oh, please!

You know, I am absolutely sick of this crap now. I wanted to go back to my flat many months ago and I could not be there because of the court. Now the judge has deferred the outcome until in March. What the hell?

There is just no point to any of this bull crap. If they had approached my situation better in the first place, hopefully I would have never lost those two damn women from my care team. The pricks cannot even do their damn jobs right. And they had some nerve not attending court.

[Lexi232]

[Anonymous37919]

This year has really sucked in a major way. I contacted my ex-girlfriend on Facebook and I just got blocked. In fact, not one ghost from my past wants to know me any longer - at all. There really is no use for Facebook anymore. It is crap.

About that agency: I am planning to go to an advocate next month to get them dealt with and so I should. It truly sucks I am stuck living with my damn parents too and that flat was mine for over 3 years, even if I only rented it and it was part of their assisted living.

[AdamLee]

Originally Posted by Peter A

This year has really sucked in a major way. I contacted my ex-girlfriend on Facebook and I just got blocked. In fact, not one ghost from my past wants to know me any longer - at all. There really is no use for Facebook anymore. It is crap.

About that agency: I am planning to go to an advocate next month to get them dealt with and so I should. It truly sucks I am stuck living with my damn parents too and that flat was mine for over 3 years, even if I only rented it and it was part of their assisted living.

My life is much like yours. I hate it and time has never healed it. Don't know what to say bud

[Anonymous37919]

I am just glad you folk understand the hell of a time I have been put through, which is not even over yet either. On members.lovingyou.com, someone said that people like me tend to be "sympathy vampires", feeding off sympathy the way those creatures consume blood.

Gee, it ain't like the person who said that remark experienced all the grief I had been subjected to up until now, even if I did lash out or mess up in some impulsive manner that makes me look like a moron in the eyes of others. Some people on other forums tend to think they are oh so intelligent and quote all my posts picking out my flaws as opposed to theirs and then sarcastically saying 'I am still not in your position' to something I said, which is just insolent.

Someone called "lenzi" on talkaboutmarriage.com ended his last post to me in my newest thread with 'No one cares' when I told the members the impact the lies will have on me for the rest of my life and how it could greatly affect my approach to being open with new people I encounter, and that is all he had to say. A moderator also deleted a post where I attached a photo of my former key worker.

This is why I hate the Internet. Even hired shrinks. They are useless too. It is all about their precious opinions and nothing about therapy comes into it.