[BNLsMOM]

I wonder if I am having am mixed episode or VERY rapid cycling...
Yesterday I was pretty OK for much of the day. I have had long term trouble getting out of bed in the morning and getting my housework and business item done. No energy to do them. I lay around on the couch and only go out when I have to to pick up my kid from school. That says depression, but I wasn't FEELING sad. Yesterday I was able to go to a meeting about my kid's school and some possible learning disabilities, I was engaged and was able to talk during the meeting with no problem. Picked him up from school, was able to have a nice day, handle taking him to swim team and watch the toddler during practice. Then before bed, I suddenly got very stressed and angry. I wanted to ram my head through the wall, crawl into a hole and die. I took some Advil PM so I could sleep and it still took more than an hour to calm down. I forced myself to stay in bed even though I wanted to leave and go out driving or running or something to get rid of my energy.

I am so confused. Am I high or am I low?

Today I still feel pretty angry and irritable.

[Slick399]

I would phone my doctor to let him know what was going on. And see if he can shed some light on your differing moods and whether it might be medication-related or just everyday life factors. Congratulations on making it to the meeting and doing a good job with your kids.

Slick

[BNLsMOM]

Thaks for your response.
That's the trouble. I am not on meds yet. I have been waiting since March for that appointment. It is next week, so hopefully all of this will begin to balance out.

I did speak to my therapist about it and he didn't give me a definitive answer, but is trying to help me figure it out. He did say that there are definite ups and downs going on with me. I think he feels like his hands are tied until I am more balanced with meds, but he always creates a safe space for me and told me that I can call him if I need to.

Today I feel good, so far. I took a long walk and I hope the exercise and fresh air will help keep me up today.

[Bats0711]

Well that's me in a nut shell. I call those days my tug o' war days, my left brain and right brain are tugging and well my body is the prize. It's not really that I don't have the energy to do what needs to be done around the house but that my mind runs amok and well I end up at the end of the day with more to do then when I started. Everything seems a mess.
I really hope your appointment next week brings you some relief.