[NuckingFutz]

i hate my life...i really am done with it. My first family fell apart, 2nd family was toxic and abusive. I tried to create my own family, but so far, no luck. i am so depressed. I feel like a freak...wrong religion, going to be in the system soon. Last gf said that was a bad thing. I dn not agree with her. Glad she is gone. Do not know how to get through tomorrow. I want a family, but i am not good enough. Why did i have 2 be born in the first place.

[Junerain]

(((((nuckingfutz))))

I was in the same place in life but found my way out of it,,,that is, still do not have a family of my own yet family is where you find it, with people who I have looked hard for over the years and found, true friends, even some lovers along the way, for this is all I have, at least family wise, but it looks like after 15 years in the system I am finding my way out and towards a career of my own

Perhaps things will turn around, ever so slowly...............

[Amazonmom]

I'm sorry you're feeling so much pain.

Originally Posted by NuckingFutz

i hate my life...i really am done with it. My first family fell apart, 2nd family was toxic and abusive. I tried to create my own family, but so far, no luck. i am so depressed. I feel like a freak...wrong religion, going to be in the system soon. Last gf said that was a bad thing. I dn not agree with her. Glad she is gone. Do not know how to get through tomorrow. I want a family, but i am not good enough. Why did i have 2 be born in the first place.

[musikcrazy]

I am sorry that you are in such a tough place in your life. Try to focus on living day to day. That's what helps me get through those times where I want to give in to the pain and give up. Your life will not stay this way. Keep reaching out until you get the help that you need and the life you deserve. Anytime you need to vent, know that there are many of us here to listen.

[madisgram]

NF, i was once where you are now. in time your situation will improve i believe. mine did immensely. it took time, therapy and meds, jme. i was in the system too. believe it or not i found the best doctor i've ever had while in the "system". when i regained control of my life i continued to see him with real insurance.
as for your family...many of us have experienced the sadness and disappointment about our family. first chance i got i moved far away from them. returned to my career and never looked back for 25 years except for short visits to see them. i "found" a new family....my friends. they love me for who i am. they have stayed in touch with me over the years no matter where i move to. i cherish them as they do me. i found true acceptance from them. unconditional love. i still have my blood family but my friends are the best family in the world. i hope this can happen to you too...keep us posted, k? we care and you do matter to us.

[susan888]

(((((((((NF))))))))

[NuckingFutz]

thanks all! Doing much better! I know being in the system is not a bad thing. I still keep up with safe people in my family. I appreciate your support.

[xxMSFxx]

((NF)) Im glad your doing alot, keep things positive

[sweetpea_tx]

I'm glad things are looking better for you. I moved from Iowa to Texas just to restart, and here I am a year later trying to rebuild everything. I'm going to MHMR and all of that until I get back on my feet, which WILL happen as long as I hold tight to the positives in my life and try my best to shake off the bad (the BP and BPD makes that a pain in the backside, but I try to do my best). I have a few people who are close enough to me to know when I'm going where I shouldn't be, and that helps. And there's also my support group. Be well, things sound like they're getting better already!

[susan888]

(((((NuckingFutz))))) Sometimes the best "family" isn't necessarily the one you were born into. ( : Make your own! In my experience...unconditional love comes from where you would least expect it!