I dont have anyone else to turn to or ask!!!

hey what should i do about my anger issues??? my situation is that i was by myself cleaning blasting music smiling and then the next 10 minutes all of a sudden my focus turned to something else im just sitting there the cd ended and all that was in my mind was the stuff that was making me get into a black hole of nothing but my past and all the people that talked about me and teased me just the different scenarios where playing in my head except this time it would be me but i wouldnt be in control its like the stronger brave and bold bad *** side of me just pulls me up and kicks *** in the situation kind of like the movie me, myself, and ireene!!!! please write back even a personal message!!!

Hey,
Do you have a diagnosis of bipolar? I would guess that is so because of being in the bipolar section. If so, you might want to start keeping a mood journal each day or even multiple times a day if you cycle from anger to depression and then baseline more than once a day. This can happen depending on your type of bipolar. Then, when you see your doctor, you can show them the way your moods spike up and down. When u feel like your in a black hole of anger, be careful about what music you listen to...and try to reach out to others for help so you don't make stupid decisions that later you will regret. Only make important decisions and judgments about your life or anything when you are feeling like yourself and fairly positive!!! Watch Stephen Frye's "The Secret Life of a Manic-Depressive" on Youtube.
Lastly, know that I am thinking of you and praying for you!
Your friend,
Wondrwoman

Mustang

Can you talk to a therapist or a doctor and get some help for this, It sounds overwhelming to me and you need assistance to deal with this.

Take care of yourself and keep us posted

Thank you all so much it is a blessing to hear back!!!!!

One thing that helps me when I have a sudden mood change (like from irritability to anger to rage to depression, etc. in a very short time frame) is even though I'm thinking revengeful thoughts on people who've been mean or misunderstanding or completely careless and ignorant to me, I say to myself "These are only thoughts and they don't make me a bad person and I don't have to act on them. Take some time, calm down, have a nap. This will pass." My brain chemistry feels all messed up during & after one of these rapid cycle moments and it usually exhausts me so I go to sleep for a couple of hours. And I don't know if the music you were listening to was making you feel good or triggered you or what, but I am really bad about listening to depressing music when I'm already depressed, and I know it can't help. Angry music when I'm angry also. Argh. Why can't life be simple, ya know? So it goes being bipolar or having any mood disorder.

But you're okay feeling and thinking things. Just tell your docs what you're experiencing and call someone if the urge to act on anything destructive becomes practically irresistible.

Let us know how things are going.