back on meds

Well all I ended up back in the hospital on the 16th. My depression almost got the best of me. I had an appt with my tdoc...good thing. Had 3 plans to end it. Spent 5 days inpatient. But I was glad to go. They started me on lexapro and I got a really bad headache on my right temple and down the back of my neck and feeling like I was going to throw up.They stopped that right away and put me on cymbalta which I had been on before and also geodon. Geodon kicks my but. I sound drunk, thats only for bed time. Still have trouble sleeping sometimes though. Now I'm back to a hypomancic state and I am not hungry very much and I am getting my house cleaned.............finally. Lots of energy, ideas, talking a mile a minute. I like this part, but I know i probably won;t last so I am going to take advantage of it. I see my new pdoc on monday. I tried to tell my last pdoc that I was headed into depression and she didn't listen. I came real close this time. I just have to learn to be more assertive.

I'm sorry that your therapist didn't listen to you, but I am glad that you're back on some meds that are helping. Sadly, there are all kinds of docs who gradually lose interest in their patients and/or stop caring. Yes, we have to be assertive, but really, it's their job to ask us what's really the matter and not accept the "I'm fine" answer. We're not socializing or doing small talk for their up to $300/hr rate.

Hypomanic is nice. Hoping my meds keep me stable long enough to get some things accomplished this summer (like reading books and starting to write again).

I also didn't tolerate lexapro. In fact, I don't tolerate anything that concentrates serotonin in the brain, even if it has other stuff. Dopamine and norepinephrine seem to do fine, but I get a little aggressive/impulsive for the first couple of weeks.

I'm glad you're okay and that you didn't follow through. We all need each other. Don't want to lose anyone on this site. Stay well and always post if you need a listening ear.