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Old Jul 28, 2009, 08:10 PM
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It's got too bad. I don't have a choice anymore. I will see you all on the other side.
I'm so scared.
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Old Jul 28, 2009, 08:22 PM
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Good luck. I will be thinking of you.

I'm glad you are going where you will be safe. I know it's scary....



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It's got too bad. I don't have a choice anymore. I will see you all on the other side.
I'm so scared.
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Old Jul 28, 2009, 08:47 PM
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It was scary, but I felt safe and had a great chance to work on recovery.
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Old Jul 29, 2009, 09:44 AM
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What is IP? Thanks, Jen
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Old Jul 29, 2009, 02:39 PM
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What is IP? Thanks, Jen
inpatient

being in the hospital
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Old Jul 29, 2009, 03:04 PM
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It's got too bad. I don't have a choice anymore. I will see you all on the other side.
I'm so scared.
{{{{{{Amanda}}}}}
you will be in all of our prayers and we will be sending you tons of cyber hugs.......let us know when you get out!!
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Old Jul 29, 2009, 09:03 PM
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(((((((Amanda)))))))
The old inpatient routine does get to be a pain, doesn't it? But you will be safe and come out better than you are now. I almost waited too long last time cuz I hadn't been in in 20 years and didn't want to go through all that again. But it was worth it. We'll be thinking of you.
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Old Jul 29, 2009, 09:05 PM
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I see your in PHoenix.....going to St. Luke's? Or Good Sam?
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Old Jul 29, 2009, 09:33 PM
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Oh no. I just saw this. I didn't know what IP was either. The message sounded so scary. I'm glad you're safe Ama, but I'm already missing you.

I hope I don't have to go soon, but if I do I'll remember you were brave enough to go, so I should be too.

Hugs and get well so we can all talk again.
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Old Aug 06, 2009, 04:09 PM
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I'm BACK! And feeling so much better )))) My rituals of self injury have ended, thus far. I'm on new pills: Geodon (insurance doesnt want to cover because I haven't been on depakote or another antimanic besides lithium), the ever present Lithium <3, and a tranq, Klonopin. Inpatient was scary for me, but leaving the hospital on discharge day was just as scary. Something about the security of the ward had gotten under my skin. Thinker, I haven't read any of your posts yet, but I'll be looking out for you.
Phoenix, I actually went to Banner Thunderbird not St Lukes (I think Good Sam=Thunderbird now?) I don't know. I missed you guys tons. I added a bunch of natural meds to my mix up too: Selenium, Magnesium, Multivitamin, B12 sublingual, Omega 3, B Complex. YAY! Stupid Insurance Time to deal with them now. <3 Read all the new posts soon. Thanks for the wellwishes <3
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Thanks for this!
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Old Aug 06, 2009, 04:15 PM
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Welcome Back!!!!!!!



Glad you're feeling better. BOO on the insurance company.
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Old Aug 06, 2009, 04:23 PM
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BOO Insurance. BOO!
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Old Aug 06, 2009, 11:23 PM
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I agree...insurance is trying to kill me I swear! It's not like they aren't raking it in on 90% of their clients and I'm the actual one who needs help and I hate going to doctors and meds and all the rest, but there's really no other alternative, and they act like I'm such an inconvenience to them. They've been late sending their checks, etc. etc. And you already know about the $1,000 in therapy that they didn't pay for declaring it preexisting! WTF? I didn't have a hospital visit and a paranoid delusional break before december of '08. And that's preexisting how? I appealed the decision 4 times but they got out on some dumb loophole. Yeah, this is fun for me guys. I just loooovvvveee going to therapy and taking meds with horrible side effects and being forced to go to the hospital. And now you make me nearly bankrupt.

I think I burned my hand tonight cooking. Of course I didn't feel a thing after the oil splashed out of the pan and got me, but now it feels like a severe sunburn on my inside left palm.

There I go manic rambling again. I'm so glad you're home and doing okay!

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Old Aug 09, 2009, 09:27 PM
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my medicine is only covered at 20 pills a month. I take 60.
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Old Aug 09, 2009, 10:27 PM
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That blows. I would take anything at this point to feel better. So friggin' depressed. If it came down to food or meds, I would choose meds because without some to keep me going, I would be dead far sooner than by starvation. (sorry, I've crashed really bad tonight)
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Old Aug 09, 2009, 10:51 PM
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I'm calling you. Now. Or sending a text. yeah.
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Old Aug 09, 2009, 11:21 PM
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My phone's in the other room. I'll be okay as soon as I get to sleep and can stop crying. WTF is wrong with me? I know, I know, I'm bipolar, my brain chemistry is unbalanced. Dammit all. I'm still in denial. I still think I can beat it, fight it through will power. I think my meds are still not right. Not even close.
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Old Aug 09, 2009, 11:52 PM
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Inpatient will help your meds get right fast. sure its a little scary at first but everyone's nice, you don't have to make yourself food and you can sleep as long as you want. Pick a TRUE mental health hospital otherwise they'll have to transfer you. I do so hate being transferred. If you've done drugs, admit it. Drank, admit it. They can help.
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Old Aug 10, 2009, 01:50 AM
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There is no true mental health hospital anywhere near to where I live. There are only two and they're in the northern part of the state. In my county there's a regular hospital with some temporary beds for mental patients.

I live right behind a hospital and can walk to it if things get any worse. It's not the above mentioned one, but they can transfer me there. I can't sleep. I've been trying for 2 hours. I was seeing a dark shape and had to come out to investigate, plus my skin is incredibly itchy tonight, but no rash.

Not crying right now. I'm just a bit anxious. The things running through my head kept me from sleeping.
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