Feeling kinda weird

So I went back to work. Everything is ok on that front so far. But I find myself on the long drive to and from work feeling as though I am going to cry. Really cry. I don't, but I worry that soon I might. My OCD is out of control. I am counting things and checking things over and over. It gets exhausting. My honey gets stressed and then I get stressed. I worry about being a burden to her. And so it goes...

I have told my pdoc. He upped my Seroquel. I see my T on Thursday. So hopefully I can get some help and nip it in the bud.

Sorry you're going through it my lauru.

I empathize. Everytime I'm in the car, whether a driver or a passenger, I have terrible thoughts about death...usually my own, but the concept of death in general. It's been worse in the past month and each time I see myself dead the images are more and more gory. I hope the new p-doc gives me anything but Seroquel to make it go away because taking SQ, I might as well be dead, being weak, shaky, forgetful, and wanting to sleep all day. But who knows, maybe that's only on a low dose. Can't see how it could get better higher.

Seroquel is a wonderful drug for some people. I hope it helps you, but if not, definitely tell your doc your side effects.

I have work today too. We'll make it through somehow.

Feel better soon and keep us posted.

I have been really bad lately with just wanting to cry also. It is not when I am driving though it is actually at work. I say if you are in a comfortable place to cry let it out. Holding things in can only make it worse. I know. Hang in there.

Going back to work causing a little extra stress that you're not aware of? Could be what's causing the uproar. Sounds like you are doing everything you can to help yourself. Good work!!! I know going through it sux, tho. Take Care of You.

Thanks all for the kind and thoughtful words. Thinker, it sounds llike Seroquel is awful for you! I wouldn't take it either if I had those side effects. I used to get really sleepy. But now that I take the Seroquel XR, I don't get that drugginess (is that even a word?) feeling and the seroquel hangover in the morning.

Work has been ok. I start school next Wed. too. It's a lot of change from a week and a half ago. I haven't even been sober for a month yet. But I have therapy tomorrow, Yay! I'm hanging in there.

I have therapy today too and I'm still manic (or hypomanic). I've been up since 3 something here. It's fun to be this energetic.

Not sure if I took XR or what. I'd have to go look on the bottle and I don't want to wake my guy up again. It's not like i was making noise. He just had to go and I was in the bathroom. So I got out fast.

I'm glad you're hanging in there and will have school next week. It's always good to have a routine with certain places to go and things to do so you're not always indoors and brooding. I know a lot about that.

Keep us posted.