benzodiazapine addiction

If they judge you, slap them up and tell them you're just manic. You're beautiful. You could always take them in the bathroom. They don't take that long to take. Stayed up too late last night, but at least I have company! lol

I don't have Bipolar, I have other initials DID, PTSD, etc. and I've had years of insomnia due to depression. I just recently notice that after I made a decison to move into the spare bedroom so I could sleep alone and not listen to spouses noisy snoring, I've begun to sleep sooo well. In the past I did use trazadone and it did make me feel sleepy very quickly.

I've been given ambien and I use it VERY carefully. Usually a half-tab will work for getting to sleep, though I did wake some in the night. But, taking the whole tablet gave me some weird/odd dreams and I sometimes lost time the morning after and would not remember things. On top of that I often fall asleep repeatedly the next day which sets me up for sleep problems the next night. ARGH!!!! Insomnia stinks and benzos are tricky. I got myself addicted to xanax (alprazolam) and went off cold turkey because I was afraid to confess my drug misuse to my doc and that was a VERY, VERY UNPLEASANT EXPERIENCE. Whoo! I hope I never do something dumb like that again. Addiction to anything is such a nightmare, ya know?

Leslie

I agree, I've always been more of a night person. Even when I'm up early in the morning it's because I hardly slept or didn't sleep at all the night before.

As for my meds and parents...there are some scheduled events where I will be with them at the same time I have to take my meds. I mean, at a restaurant I could get up and use the restroom, but what if my mom tries to come with me? At the play, what do I do since I'm supposed to take one of them during the performance?

At the concert the other night with just me and my guy, it didn't matter because no one knew us. It's weird. I guess they know I'm taking some meds. I just hope they don't ask what they are.

I am not one to advise someone to be dishonest BUT what about, "I have a headache"????
I had to take meds right in the middle of every night's rehearsal when I was directing a children's play. And I just put my meds in one of those little tylenol tubes and said--"you kids give me such a headache!" and poured all my meds down my throat and laughed.

Aww, poor kids. Hope you didn't give them a complex.

Nah, I'm sure their parents say worse things to them every night. And yeah, under the circumstances you don't want anyone to ask questions and if it got back to the parents...etc., etc. Being bipolar is so complicated! We are so discriminated against even when we are completely compliant with our meds and not having an episode.

I think I'll put mine in something that doesn't crinkle and make sure I get something to drink like a water before the play starts. Since you can bring water into the theatre but nothing else.

Weird how this wound up on a benzo post. I'll take those when I'm home and ready for bed.