[amaviena]

I've been taking my medication mostly steadily for three months. My mood swings have been on hiatus for two weeks and I'm terrified that they'll be back in full bloom sooner than I'd like. My anxiety has rounded off a bit. I don't spend as much time curled up in the bath tub praying for it to end.
I should start work again on 10-12, but I'm going to ask for another week so I can calmly get prepared to go back to work. Has anyone ever asked their doctor for more time? I don't think this should be too unreasonable.
I start school on-line on 10-26. I'm taking Sociology, Philosophy, and Spanish. All easy courses that shouldn't cause too much stress. I hope.
MY MEDICATION, Geodon, GOT APPROVED. I appealed the insurance's decision to deny me my pill without even being able to locate the doctor who originally prescribed me Seroqel (a required trial before Geodon). I'm elated.
I started dating my ex again after a few unsuccessful attempts in the dating world. I never should have left him. My mom hates him, but he gets me. He's always supported me and been mindful of my illness. I feel lucky to be so understood by one person. I accept and love him and his faults. I expect I will move in with him in a few months.
I feel NORMAL. It's sort of dull and uneventful. I don't regret this. It reminds me of what I read in An Unquiet Mind. This must be what it's like to feel the same as everyone else. Sure it's not as gleefully light and not as dismally dark and not as confusing/mixed, but it sure is nice to be able to open a book and read it. And it sure is nice to look at my bank statements and know where everything came from and not have bills piled in stacks around me. I'm not afraid to go outside or drive somewhere on my own.
I'm so happy to be alive and thankful for these precious years.
Now the trouble is staying here.
Thanks for listening.

[BNLsMOM]

I am happy you are feeling so well.

[gravyyy]

That's fantastic you're feeling so well right now. You say you're concerned the mood swings will be back but to be honest, I've found that once I finally found a winning medication regimen, I have had mood swings but they haven't been nearly as bad. Hopefully that's the case with you too. Glad to hear you're feeling well... always encouraging to hear others on here doing well. Take care.

Originally Posted by amaviena

I've been taking my medication mostly steadily for three months. My mood swings have been on hiatus for two weeks and I'm terrified that they'll be back in full bloom sooner than I'd like. My anxiety has rounded off a bit. I don't spend as much time curled up in the bath tub praying for it to end.
I should start work again on 10-12, but I'm going to ask for another week so I can calmly get prepared to go back to work. Has anyone ever asked their doctor for more time? I don't think this should be too unreasonable.
I start school on-line on 10-26. I'm taking Sociology, Philosophy, and Spanish. All easy courses that shouldn't cause too much stress. I hope.
MY MEDICATION, Geodon, GOT APPROVED. I appealed the insurance's decision to deny me my pill without even being able to locate the doctor who originally prescribed me Seroqel (a required trial before Geodon). I'm elated.
I started dating my ex again after a few unsuccessful attempts in the dating world. I never should have left him. My mom hates him, but he gets me. He's always supported me and been mindful of my illness. I feel lucky to be so understood by one person. I accept and love him and his faults. I expect I will move in with him in a few months.
I feel NORMAL. It's sort of dull and uneventful. I don't regret this. It reminds me of what I read in An Unquiet Mind. This must be what it's like to feel the same as everyone else. Sure it's not as gleefully light and not as dismally dark and not as confusing/mixed, but it sure is nice to be able to open a book and read it. And it sure is nice to look at my bank statements and know where everything came from and not have bills piled in stacks around me. I'm not afraid to go outside or drive somewhere on my own.
I'm so happy to be alive and thankful for these precious years.
Now the trouble is staying here.
Thanks for listening.

I'm glad you were able to come and open up, though I know that in itself is hard to do. And being bipolar myself, it's ahrd to express exactly what were feeling, because we don't even know.
I think it is a good thing you ask you doctor for more time off.
You say you Work and Go to School and are Bipolar - I commend you.

I don't leave the house maybe twice a month and rarely have outside commication. But when I'm out there I do okay - not with driving though - I quickly finish all my stuff for the month in one day then have to come home and take medication for anxiety...........

Again I commend you for doing so much with so little ....

[Amazonmom]

Looks like you've made a lot of progress. Congrats!

[thinker22]

I'm happy you're doing better Ama. You deserve a place of stability and a good life. We all do. The right meds combo seems to be the answer for most of us. I'm almost there too. Still having "off" days, but on the whole I don't recognize myself from even a couple of weeks ago. There are still the invasive and negative thoughts, but my mood may be evening out. It has nothing to do with "will power" or thinking positive thoughts. It's all about the chemistry. In time I think when our meds are good, we can work through patterns of thinking and behaviors that are detrimental. Then long term success is possible.

Wishing you all the luck and happiness in the world. You be careful though. Do all the "right things" to stay well and challenge anything unusual or toxic to your well being.

[Berries]

I am so glad for you, amaviena!

[lonegael]

AMAVIENA!!!!!!! You go, girl!!!