[BNLsMOM]

A good job.

Before my hospitalizations this summer I was an independant contractor for a large company. I got a call yesterday to talk about becoming an admin for one of the most successful independant contractors of this company.

I was taking some time off and I wasn't sure if I was going to go back at all, but this could be a huge opportunity for me. I am not totally sure if i am ready to work yet, considering I haven't even been out of the inpatient for a month.

I know the decision is ultimately up to me, but I really don't know what to do. When do I know if I am ready to work again?

[episodic]

I did not even get to P Doc yet and am running rund ding job interveiws. I am not sure I could work either. I could go on disability and have an appointment to get totally checked...but not sure if I can just sit here and rot either.

Work might be therapy.

[birdcrazy]

Yeah, I would work, consider yourself lucky. I'm looking for work now. The doctors and Voc. Rehab. say I'm well enough to work and shouldn't go on disability.

[BNLsMOM]

I don't mean to sound ungrateful for the job opportunity. I have just historically been triggered in every job I have had and my T and I have talked about my not being ready to work.

[lonegael]

If you and T think that it's better to wait, then that sounds pretty much like waiting might be best. Sure, it might be a golden oppurtunity, but what if you get the job, and then cycle and lose it? When do you have to say yes? Can you put off starting the actual job until you feel more stable? Please take care of yourself first, and that doesn't mean putting yourself in the path of the freighttrain, if there is another way of handling this. Hope it goes well

[thinker22]

If it were me, I'd check with my current emotions/stability. If I felt fine, definitely I'd go for it. If I still felt bad and/or odd and anxious, I would wait. Tell them you're getting well but are very interested.

Don't push yourself, but don't totally discount the idea and put yourself into a worse spot. Think of all the options. This job may still be available in the future or another job could be. Maybe you need a transition activity that's not exactly a job but is a good way to evaluate how you'd do in a real job situation at this point.

Hope this helps.

I get triggered by every job too. That's why I'm going on disability if I can get it. I never know when I'm going to crash and burn. Tough decision.