[lynxlover]

My younger sister always came to stay with me thru the Christmas Holidays. We were the only 2 in our family who understood our bi-po and we knew our parents were uncomfortable when we were visiting them. They always made up some excuse to cut our visits short. My sis and I looked at it in a humorus manner, joking and giggling like 5 yr olds. We always laughed when together over the silliest things like me accidentally stepping in dog poop or her walking into a light pole while looking for keys in her purse. We could look at one another and just burst out laughing and we were always cracking jokes. We never failed to tell each other "I love you sis" (our parents have never ever mentioned the word love to us in our entire lifetime) but sis and I gave each other lots of hugs. How will I ever get thru the Holidays? Christmas music makes me cry, the thought of even putting a bow on a paper bag makes me so depressed and sad I feel like I want to sleep the whole holiday thru to get it over with. I do have great friends but I even shut them out. I don't know if I can make it thru the holidays.

[gravyyy]

oh goodness lynx... so sorry for your losses. Holiday times are always difficult when we cant be with or near the ones we love to spend time with. I don't have any great wisdom here, but it's one foot in front of the other. One day or one hour at a time. If you don't have other fomaily you spend time with on the holidays maybe you could volunteer at a soup kitchen or something. Trying to find something that makes you either want to get out of bed or feel ike you should get out of bed to do. Do you have a T? This is definitely something a T can help you work through. Otherwise keep posting here. Maybe check out the forum about grief as well. Take good care!

[VickiesPath]

I know we are no substitute for your beloved sister but there are many of us here who are lonely at the holidays for the same reasons as you or simply because our families don't understand us or have abandoned us. Please keep sharing and posting about your feelings of grief. Christmas will never be the same for you but when God closes a door, He opens a window. We support you in your time of sorrow and know that we will always be here for you.

Oh, lynxlover, my heart goes out to you for your loss. Massive Don't know what else to say, but remember we are here to listen, of course, but also that our caring thoughts surround you. Even if they are invisible, they are there.

[Anneinside]

I can say I understand your loss. In 1992, my only child, Serena, died on December 30th. She was sixteen years old and died in a car accident. Since then, my Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays have been a mixture of sadness and joy. Sadness for my loss and joy for her life. It does get easier as you develop new traditions.

[lynxlover]

Thanks everyone. Everyone here is so compassionate about others I feel like I can talk here and someone will understand what I'm feeling. This is such a caring group of people, I feel blessed having you.

[BNLsMOM]

I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you have cherished and wonderful memories of your sister. That will help you get through.

[Amazonmom]

I am so sorry.

[NuckingFutz]

I am so sorry for your loss. I have learned the grieving process. But when all is said and done, carry her with you in your heart. She can still be there for you, just in a different way.

[lonegael]

(((((((Lynxlover))))))) I don't have words to say, except please accept my condolences. I will be holding you two in my heart this season.

[FeelingHopeful]

I am so sorry!!!!! My prayers and hugs to you girl, I am So so sorry, Sending all my love to you!

[cybermember]

I'm terribly sorry for your loss. Sending love, light and hugs to get you through this holiday season.