nearing hypomania

I've been so depressed for months. Now I feel fantastic. I am texting on the hiway and want to stop my meds. I feel invinsible and want this feeling to keep going up and up and up. Had T today and he said I was nearing hypomania. He said I was talking loud and fast and sending inappropriate texts to him.
This feels sooooooo good!!!

I have pdoc next week. Should I tell her or just ride this as long as I can?

Depends. Does the high of your ride determine the low of your fall?

After the fantastic high, there is always a fall...I know it's tempting at times to just enjoy a manic frenzy, but the way you feel when you crash, is very very bad.

I'd stay on my meds and listen to your doc or therapist. Btw, I have Bipolar and have been faithful to my meds for prolly 15 years now....I don't want to go back to the way I was when I was manic..........it's basically an illusion.

Good luck.

stay on the meds, berries, & just ride it out. maybe it'll just be a quick, fun ride without too much of a crash.
careful texting on the highway!!! you don't want a CAR crash!

You are sounding very blind right now, which is a bit understandable considering that you are hypomanic right now! For God's sake, your thinking about stopping your meds. Do some self reflection on this one! Please be honest with your therapist and psychiatrist. Even go so far as making an emergency appointments with both. To be honest, I think you might need new doctors anyways if that is an option. They perhaps could have been a bit more aggressive, yet acted safe with your months long depression.

I hope you heed this advice. At least the part of seeing your therapist and psychiatrist ASAP and being honest with both. You definitely need a med change!

From what you said, there is no indication that you need new t and pdoc. Just that you need to listen to them. Hypomania is seductive but if you are like me, it just means that I will be poor and in debt again. Rein it in and you'll be glad later. It may mean that you need to tweak your meds.

I can relate to these feelings, have taken myself off the meds too many times when I feel the mania. And for a little while I'm fine. But!!! I always, always come down. Hard. And faster than I could imagine. Perhaps the meds are not the right ones? Making you hypomanic? Perhaps you could discuss this with your pdoc/T?

Thinking of you, and reminder that ride never lasts.
xxx

I just had an episode that I still don't quite know what it is, but I think it was more on the manic side of things. I was able to talk to my therapist several times and he made it clear that I could call him 24/7. I was bursting with ideas and thoughts that I couldn't keep up with. I had posted some of them here. Having a place to let it out (here and with T) really healped me not to act it out.

In the past, i would go out and start a business or start some other idea or venture that was doomed to failure because it was extrememly impulsive. It felt awful not to act on things and I was jumping out of my skin sometimes, but knowing that I could share thing with my T and didn't have to prove that "I can do it, just watch!" really helped me to stay safe until the mood passed.

I am really confused about what exactly happened, but now I am picking up right where I was before and that is what I consider the process of recovery.

Check in with us. Let your ideas out either here or in a journal or with your T. Be safe and make a soft spot for your eventual landing.

I think the others have made great points, most especially that you won't always feel so good... in my opinion, I'd rather settle the high gently than come crashing down in some other really unpleasant way (ie jail, debt, car accident, or horrible depression). I would call your pdoc if I were you... the other thought is you don't want to become manic and dangerous to the point where you need to be hospitalized. Not right in time for the holidays. Stay safe.

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but if you are like me, it just means that I will be poor and in debt again. Rein it in and you'll be glad later. It may mean that you need to tweak your meds.

Berries, sweetheart, you've been here before. It feels wonderful, fantastic, just like the best high of highs. That's why it's so seductive. Take care of you. Take care of you, sweetheart. Do what you need to do. Pick the dull life. LOL. You'll thank us later. LOL

Thinking of you Berries and hoping your ok!