[Nudyinae]

The paranoia… everyone’s watching, judging.
The anxiety… don’t want to leave the house, don’t want to be anywhere unsafe
The pain… what can make it go away? External pain, sleeping away the pain, what do you do with the pain? Why is it there so much.
The irritability… don’t want anyone around, people can’t say or do the right thing.

The days that are good are so few and far between and when you’re feeling good you worry about when that headache and the spiral downward will happen again and the cycle starts all over …………….. again.

It seems that nothing can make me happy for long..

[BNLsMOM]

(((Nudyinae)))

[gravyyy]

I hear you Nudyinae. I hear you. Take good care. Hang in there!!

[FeelingHopeful]

Nudyinae, Aww A Big Hug to you! Hang in, We care about you!

[missmoonshine]

Nudyinae, sorry to hear your struggle and pain, if only I could take it a away for you and fix the world. I hope you have been in contact with your Doc and/or someone who can help, no-one deserves to suffer this way you need as much support at the moment as you can get

[ichbinnemo]

i get this way sometimes. just try to hang in long enough to get to the good days again, they will come back, even if it seems they arent often. but you just need a good support system, so you can see that you dont have to go through this alone. good luck!(:

[yutzman]

I hope you've sought some kind of therapy to deal with these feelings. I know they can be so overwhelming one can't seem to think clearly enough to seek help sometimes. I, myself, have been in your same exact boat. It took me years to learn how to deal with this disease, and meds started me off on the right track. I started on Pristiq and Buspar to initially get my symptoms under control. Followed by months of Psych-therapy........and now I still feel the symptoms but have learned to control my response to them.....
Please keep posting, support is always here to receive...good luck...Y

[Nudyinae]

Thank you all for your support

[Skully]

Some days it is hard I know. But I always wake up each day saying "today is going to be a good day". Sometimes it helps.

[lost13]

[steck]

I empathize with you--just remember at some point your mood will swing again. I hope you are on medications and are seeking professional help. The biggest problem with bipolar is that when we feel better and get manic, we don't want that feeling to go away, and medication compliance can be a problem. I'm glad you are here. I am sending you prayers to lift you up right now, just not too far. You can find peace within yourself--try meditation daily. It slows down the racing thoughts and may decrease your anxiety. If you are truly paranoid and agoraphobic, you need to let your Doc know right away--you may need a medication adjustment. Take care of yourself cause you are the only person that can. I am praying you will find a break in your cycle and some spiritual peace. Steck