Not sure how bad or good I am doing

well, I have been diagnosed bipolar back in Uni. But after I walked out of my shrink's room, I have not been treated...

I have very hard time sometimes, but so far I made it out of bed each time I really needed too and had my work done. I am pretty sure I have been suffering this since High School... but I managed to get into Uni (on major where only some 10% of applicants are accepted) and finished that school. I needed some extra time, but I was not the only one who did it this way.

At the moment I am just trying to find a job and I feel that the time of not doing anything is kinda making things worse. Because I don't have to get up, don't have to leave the appartment...etc.

I am not sure if I should seek treatment. I am scared that I could snap... but at the same time, I have been living with it for years... and I am scared that any experimentation with the meds just may screw me up even further. I cannot afford to lose any time.

I am also pretty much alternative chick and I don't really trust "chemistry".

Maybe it's time to sit down with a 'talk' shrink' at first to evaluate your sitiuation. The 'chemistry' may or may not be needed........but if your having thoughts that you need treatment.......you probably do......Good Luck....Y

Hey there. Congrats on the schooling! I cant finish my sentences sometimes without going on to something else. So finishing anything is great.

I must say that I remember all to well the 'experimentation' of chemistry. They tried me on a few meds before we finally got it down. Having the strong support from my wife was a great measure on meds. I forgot which one I took, but by day 2 she banned me from taking it again. It was WAY to strong and wiped me out emotionally. Eventually after a few tries, we settled on a triple cocktail that seemed to work great.

Looking for a job for ANYONE is not easy right now, let alone someone facing other challenges. One option you may look into is contacting the Uni. There may be some form of job placement services.... or even a resource center staffed by people who may get you more familiar with certain job hunting skills.

Sometimes 'chemistry' is not needed as yutzman said. Talking with a 'shrink' might be all that is needed. It could just be a 'get it off your chest' moment, who knows. Sometimes chemistry is the extra little bit you need to help get you back on track. Whatever it is that helps, there is no doubt you will find it. You are Here

Good Luck

Thanks for your answers. That made me feel somehow better.

In other thread somebody mentioned they feel bipolar may be a gift...and honestly, I also feel that way sometimes and I am often not sure if I want to be normal... I just want to be able to deal with my emotions a bit better... but I do not want to get rid of them. I actually like my highs and I sometimes can channel my emotions when I am low in useful ways (if I am not totally down, than it's out of question).

I am an artsy and creative person and that is a big part of my personality. If I lost this, it would seriously kill me.