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Mar 17, 2010, 06:00 PM
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It always saddens me when I create a post like this because I know of so many who have been through so much more than I. It makes me feel pathetic, really. But this is still basically about how I am in a really really bad place right now, just really beat down and out of hope and I guess I just need to feel like someone can hear me.
I've lost my insurance benefit because my doctor has taken emergency leave and is no where to be found to complete the paperwork I need, let alone see me for treatment. I have no idea how long I will have to wait. 2 days before I was supposed to see him he just up and took off and there is no one to take his place. My computer is dead. I think I fried it doing something stupid but it's old so it may be coincidence. (Fortunately, I at least have access to one temporarily.) I am too down to want to do anything at all even though I have all day to do it. There are still dishes in the sink from yesterday and it's 7:45pm. I could go on with several other things, all seeming to happen at the same time. I'm not the biggest cheese fan but I'll accept some crackers to go with this instead. I know things could be worse. But I feel so much despair and so much numbness to the outside world I want to run away and hide and scream for help at the same time. I'm sorry. But I had to say something.
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Mar 17, 2010, 06:38 PM
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*hugs* darling anything you have to say will be listened to here and even though some others may have gone through 'worse' how you feel is worth listening to as well. *hugs again* I hope things get better for you and if you ever want to talk I'm on just about every day.
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Mar 17, 2010, 06:44 PM
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I don't think you are whining, you are justifiably scared.
Is there anyone at his office that is covering patients? Even in an emergency doctors usually have agreements set up with other docs to cover their patients. HUGS. 
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Mar 17, 2010, 08:18 PM
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Your pain is no less than someone else's pain. You situations are just different. You are welcome to post without guilt when you need support.
As for your doctor being unavailable, there may be an emergency answering service who can point you to a p-doc who is covering. I can't imagine a doctor leaving all the patients in the lurch without anyone to cover. If that is the case, and you are very unsafe, the ER is an alternative. Please let us know how you are doing. |
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Mar 17, 2010, 10:48 PM
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I agree...if you have bipolar and you are having a hard time, that's what the board is here for. No other requirements. You are not pathetic!! You are not whining!! You are expressing how you feel and that's good! I am so sorry to hear that the doc just up and left and that they had no emergency system in place...that is NOT okay. It is very irresponsible, imho. I do hope that you can find someone to see soon. Take care and keep us up to date if you can!
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Mar 18, 2010, 02:38 PM
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Your problems are no less than mine. Putting it out there is part of manageing and healing. Each of us can relate, and you desrve to be able and express it. Yoy are not pathetic, you are hurting... do not let anyone tell you otherwise!
 I am verry surprised that your doc does not have an backup arangement, as that is not how we do things in our org... but that is my experience. I hope you find some way to get seen. Take care |
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Mar 19, 2010, 11:08 AM
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Thank you all for your kind replies. I agree one should not feel that way and in fact I've given the same advice. However, such irrational negative feelings are symptoms in and of themselves, aren't they?
But regarding the paperwork situation, there are no options. All I can do is wait and try to hope. *edit. paragraph deleted*
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