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#1
Apr 08, 2010, 07:25 PM
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I am quickly spirilaing downward. I feel completely and utterly hopeless and useless. I have ruined everything and everyone around me. I am paranoid, worried about being so self-absorbed right now, and just thinking evil thoughts of taking a bottle of Lunesta. I hate this and I am tired of it. It goes away and then comes back, so why should I continue this cycle? I have just agreed to a new teaching position next year that requires incredible strength and determination, yet I feel none of that. I completely played along at the interview and I knew the right words to say. I can't even handle day to day life, much less such a demanding job. What are my options at this point? No one can know how I am really feeling. My coping skills are more pills and alcohol. It's so ridiculous. I mean, isn't all of this just so hysterical!!! I have tried it all, done it all, and it all ends up the same. At this dark tunnel trying to figure out how to dig my way out. Finding something to make the pain go away. Manipulating people and situations to make everything appear just so. It is crazy. I just want to sleep.
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#2
Apr 08, 2010, 08:19 PM
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Since you are going into a bad state, you should call your doctor immediately to get some help.
It sounds like you have a great opportunity coming in your life and you need to get help now so that you will be ready. You didn't mention if you were seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist so I would suggest seeing both. It took quite a while for us to find a good combination of drugs to keep me relatively stable (along with ECT). A psychologist can help you find more healthy coping skills that will reduce your stress and help you in your new job. |
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Apr 09, 2010, 01:28 PM
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I don't know exactly how you feel, your right, but i have a pretty good idea.. I don't see the purpose in day to day life either. It's intolerable, irritating, pointless, and it seems like a rut sometimes. I barely sleep which is worse bc it leaves me with my thoughts.. which are not helping whatsoever. But your not alone in this ride downwards. That job could help you keep your mind off things, give you something to focus on, it could do some good.
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Apr 09, 2010, 01:49 PM
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 hey there I think you need some real big I also have some idea of how you're feeling. Man, isnt it soul desroying? You just think to yourself WHY SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER ONLY FOR ME TO END UP HERE AGAIN AND AGAIN AGAIN. You feel isoloated and lonely but its not true. We understand and know the pain you speak of. Yes I also ask myself this when on a downward spiral and it is a dark dark place to be BUT....... the reason I go on is because life is worth living and everyday brings new possibilities.... you just cant see that right now but I know there is a place inside you that knows life can be good. Ride the storm.... speak to your doc..... speak to anyone but dont suffer in silence.... or by yourself. I find wiriting all this stuff down helps... even if it sounds crazy... write write write away.... let it all out..... and remember you will come out of this.. yo have b4 and will again here for you... I hear you 
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Apr 09, 2010, 03:23 PM
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Thank you so much fo listening. I have a psychiatrist, therapist, etc. I am on an army of drugs. I just started feeling so defeated last night. Thanks for helping me get through the night. Now, for the rest of the day....
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Apr 09, 2010, 04:04 PM
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Yes I know those nights all too well lol glad you are feeling better. Have a good day keep smiling stay positive :-)
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#7
Apr 09, 2010, 04:05 PM
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If you need to talk, you can pm me
if you'd like
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Apr 09, 2010, 04:06 PM
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Apr 09, 2010, 04:07 PM
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yes me too :-)
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#10
Apr 09, 2010, 04:10 PM
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I figured it out!!! For once my degree is working for me!!!LOL!!!
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Apr 09, 2010, 08:51 PM
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WOW Did you just copy the word right out of my mouth? I am also done! I have been feeling so crappy and I just want to give up! I am literally falling asleep at the drop of a dime, in the car driving my kids to and from school....I sleep all the time, I am just tired of the fight ya know? the meds, the docs, the crazy episodes, I just want normal or somewhat normal anyway. I am at the end I think...no fight left in me goodluck to you but I can't give advice when I don't know how to help myself  ....I just want my mind to be at peace ya know?
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#12
Apr 10, 2010, 12:59 PM
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i know exactly what you mean >.< my mind is literally never at peace, and its actually pretty irritating, no matter how hard you try, you cant get it to stop. i have wanted to give up for awhile as well, although i can never get to sleep, along with the insomnia and paranoia, my mind never shuts itself up. just keep trying your best jenni, try your hardest to focus on something happy and calm, and if you want to stay awake, just try your hardest to focus on something you need to do that day, or planning for something later in the week, just try your best, and thats all anyone can ask of you
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Apr 10, 2010, 05:19 PM
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Well, I am definitely in a mixed state as yesterday and last night I was crazy wild and did some things that I am now ashamed of. I didn't go to bed until 3, but today I drank this all natural stuff called CALM and I swear it seemed to help.
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