How to get motivated?

I thought I was doing quite well... but in past three weeks or so, I have been so unmotivated. I know I should be studying for my Prague-guide exam and do more job-searching (okay, I do this. But there are no jobs. Really none I could possibly do).

But I just wake up in the morning, try to sleep again and wait for the evening to come by. I am extremely tired all the time (today, all I did was to go to the bank to pay my friggen insurance). I wish I could find some job, you know something primitive as leaflet distributor or something, so I would not feel so useless. No luck for past three weeks. And I am tired of roaming the streets and asking in every damn hotel/travel agency whatever... they all tell me the obvious "there's a crisis". So when I make myself to go out, it takes me a long time, I try on several hairdos and clothes, I re-do my make up several times... and sometimes I come home an hour later.

I just lack any motivation... I used to be so hardworking, but at the moment, I am just a mess. My mom insist I go with her on our annual vacation abroad, but I feel guilty even thinking about it. I don't want to spent the money I don't earn... my bank account is still in the plus... but...

And no, I am not in therapy or on meds. I don't really believe in chemistry (I refuse to take even aspirin)... I don't really have the funds to find a therapist since my insurance probably does not cover it.

And I know none of this I wrote makes any sense. Sorry for typos and grammar inconsistencies that may occur.

i totally understand.. up until two days ago I was going through the same thing. day in and day out (even on meds) I was just going through the motions... if I could have I wouldnt have left the house except to take the kids to school. But my husband makes me go to work every day. we have bills and depend on my income as well as his to pay them. But with me, it passed like all my moods do. The important thing I did was talk to someone. Find a therapist if at all possible. And know your not alone!!

VenusHalley, You made it to the bank!! Give yourself credit for that. Some days Im lucky if I can get the trash can to the curb. What you wrote makes alot of sense. I started out on antidepressants prescribed by my regular physician, then got a referral to a Pdoc. The medications helped alot to get me motivated. Definitely check out the treatment plans offered by your insurance, if they cant cover you then maybe they can direct you to a program which can. Keep reaching out!!

Thanks. I feel actually better today... not as lazy at least.

I am bit afraid of any meds... because I feel that my crappiness is somehow "natural" and I feel afraid of messing up with it. At most of the time, I can still eventually get over it... maybe it takes longer, but I do my task on time.

I live in Europe, so all insurance companies have the same coverage. It's a terrible co-pay, but I still would have to use money out of my pocket... No, I don't qualify to any social-welfare programs, since I have occasional jobs and own a house. And I am really afraid of having a medical record in mental health... I feel it could hinder my possible career.

You definitely are not alone - I have been feeling like this on and off for a month now. And I used to be the jolly one in the office.
Now I'm just the quiet one sitting in the corner, blocking out the world with her iPod.
I just have to deal with it, knowing that I have to keep my job and that this is just an episode and will pass. And my mood-stabilisers, which I've just started, will kick in eventually.
And I have 2 more subjects where I write exams end of May to finish my degree - I have not yet opened a book because by the time I get home I am so emotionally drained I just chill in front of the TV and go to bed as soon as possible. Just know that this feeling will pass and be strong while it lasts