New strategy, think it will work?

So I seem to be suffering from unbelievable inertia and it's only getting worse. Meaning that if I'm not at work I'm laying around with my laptop not moving at all and feeling guilty about all the things I don't seem capable of taking care of.

This is kind of good with the new drug regiment since I can am paying attention to the effect they are having but that doesn't help with the guilt.

Since I'm apparently addicted to this stupid computer I'm going to try having the stupid computer tell me to do things. I'm filling out the calendar. Maybe if the instructions come from my laptop I will actually do them, I don't know.

Hey Eloise, low functioning for me has always been a respresentation of Bipolar Major Depression. Are you having negative thoughts along with the inertia?

I'm the same as Wendy. Those sorts of signs usually mean I'm about to crash.

I do find using my laptop handy though. Though I study computer science so I'm always in front or one, if not two at a time. :P But I use my calendar on it for events/uni classes and try to keep it filled up all the time so it makes me try and not missed anything because I can see I have no time to catch up later.

So I might set up an event called 'House work' on my calendar. Then when I see it I write out all the tasks I have to do. For some reason if my computer shows me my tasks for a certain thing or for the day I go MEHHH.

Maybe even getting my mobile to send you sms or sent alerts on it?

Well... I would like to let you guys know of a Calendar application that I used to use. Its called Rainlender. Always visible calendar, color coded reminders. Many features. Its a great little tool that I have used in the past... Now I have a wife to help remind me of things. Thought it might be something worth trying out..

http://www.rainlendar.net/cms/index.php

I feel like an aficionado of all the different kinds of depression. I'm sure at least someone can relate to that idea. I was over-due for a med change before the new regiment started about two weeks ago.

It's definitely a depression except not a particularly sad, hopeless or desperate variety. I'm anxious, guilty, isolating myself and struggling with placing a lot of negative judgements on myself and my life as it currently is. I'm no where near suicidal (although I very rarely have been).

So low self-esteem, low functioning and apparently immobile definitely equal depression. So far the drug changes have totally axed any mania (which was dampened before but at least made me clean my room). They are helping me sleep better but are still making me semi-catatonic, which is not helping with the mobility issue.

Eloise I think it's great that you have intervened by the meds change and also talking about ypur functionality and your feelings/moods. You're halfway to a solution just doing those things and being kind to yourself.

Thank you. I kinda need boosters like that right now. I hate the waiting around to see if ___ drug is going to work and the possibility that it won't and having to do the whole thing all over with new ____drug.