[sugahorse1]

I posted this on the drug forum, but putting it here too

I suffer from BP, but was only dx'd a while ago. As far as I am concerned, I've either been dealing with this or depression for about the last 7 or so years.

Just over a year ago, I went through a stage where whenever I experienced really bad anxiety or depression, I would climb under the duvet and for about half an hour would repeatedly sniff Poppers. I think I may have got a bit addicted to the feeling it gave me. I haven't done this in over a year though.
I'm not sure why.
I'm not sure what board to post this on.
I'm not sure what I'm hoping to hear from anyone?

Maybe - have you ever done this yourself? Is this just an out to release some emotional pain? Is this damaging to the body? Is this a sign of a problem? I find myself right now wanting to seek this kind of feeling I used to get when I did sniff it..??

Feedback I've found so far is that it is not as damaging as other drugs, but the fact that I feel I need to keep it hidden from my bf is obvious that it is not a good idea.
It just makes me feel OK - like I'm escaping to another world; where I have no emotions and can just feel my physical self; there is no emotional self

[cybermember]

Poppers are akin to sniffing glue so there is a good possibility of causing harm to yourself. I would highly recommend you stay away from the stuff as over time it affects mental cognition. If you can't kick the habit on your own then I would suggest that you seek out help for substance abuse. I wish you the best in the direction you take to kick this habit.

[sugahorse1]

I haven't done it in well over a year, but every now and again when I get really down, I feel tempted. Actually, it's something to really easy the pain of depression. Well, I really should not be trying to justify it for myself

[cybermember]

It's great to hear you haven't done anything in a year. Cravings can be difficult at times, but don't give in! Implement coping mechanisms to deal with stressors/depression instead of using is your best bet. Your T can help you implement coping skills for those times when you're having a hard time and want to reach for that little bottle. And there's always PC to help.