I don't know what to do for myself

These angry outbursts are ruining my marriage....my entire life. I feel like my kids have to live through hell because of me. I know it's wrong to get as angry as I do, and I feel guilty about it. But it still keeps happening over and over, and it always seems to be a little worse than the time before. I want to stop it. I want to stop it SO BAD. I don't know how to control this. I used to have problems like this years ago, and then it seemed to get better. But now it's all coming back again... and with a vengeance. My anger is dangerous to myself and to my family. Literally dangerous. I don't know what to do. I really just don't know. When it got better before, I don't remember what made it better. I don't think ANYTHING made it better then either. It jsut kinda went away for awhile (a few years). But now it's so bad that I throw things and hit things (not people, although I'm afraid that it's going to get that bad if something doesn't change). I posted a few days ago about horrible anger. It was suggested thata I figure out what "triggers" me. I have been watching for what these triggers might be. And, really, any tiny little thing that goes wrong triggers this anger. I mean, it can be the most insignificant thing imaginable, and I get angry about it. I don't know how to deal with this. I really, truly don't. Any suggestions are welcome...

(((((((MentalPollution)))))))

I don't have many suggestions. I just wanted to let you know I care and you are not alone.

Things will get better for you..

((((Gem)))) Thanks. It's good to know that at least someone is "listening". I just feel alone in this. So, again, thanks so much for responding!

YOU SOUND VERY MUCH LIKE ME A FEW YEARS AGO. I WAS A TERROR TO MYSELF AND OTHERS. I SAW A PDOC AND WAS DIAGNOSED BIPOLAR AND WAS PUT ON DEPAKOTE AND ABILIFY. IAM A MUCH BETTER PERSON TODAY. I DON'T THROW THINGS THROUGH WINDOWS ANYMORE AND MY ANGER IS MORE APPROPRIATE. PLEASE TAKE MY ADVICE AND SEE A PDOC. IT COULD CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR THE BETTER. GOOD LUCK.

i get bouts of major anger too - i wake up feeling irritable and anything can set me off - usually something so minor that no one else even registers the event, until i start kicking off.

going to a therapist to try to sort out the underlying reason for the anger is a great idea, but in the meantime it may be worth trying to treat it. this kind of extreme anger is usually a sign for me of impending hypomania/psychotic episode. usually, if i increase my dosage of seroquel a little, it evens things out again. obviously that's not a long term fix, but it may be helpful to calm it a little until you can work through the causes.

also, slightly odd, but bear with me! does it get worse in any particular kind of weather? the weather in the uk summer is often very muggy, sticky and close - like a huge storm is due. if the weather is like that, i instantly get angry, i wake up angry and snap at people, get irate at irrational things etc, but after the storm, i chill out a bit. apparently this is something to do with electrical charges in the air. i don't know if there's anything to be done about it, but it may be worth seeing whether certain climate makes you more angry. apparently it's fairly common - strange but hey.

i hope you are feeling ok today xxx

I had a spell like that too where I didn't need meds and was stable. But when that doesn't work anymore it Really doesn't work. Therapy and meds have helped, but I still have my moments. Don't be so hard on yourself, and involve your spouse in your getting better.

I have periods of extreme anger. I would get so angry at my family for the smallest reasons and get out of control yelling at them. After finding the right combination of meds it has improved but it is one of the signs as i start getting manic. I have been working on it in therapy also but think there is a link with the bp that medication seems to help.

I have the same issues. Never knowing when the anger will strike or who I'll take it out on... Therepy helps!!! My therapist has given me tools to disengage my emotional brain with my logical brain. As I feel the anger coming on or I wake up angry I start to think about how bad is the event that is causing my anger. On a scale of 1 -100. 1 being not a big enough deal to even register and 100 being the whole earth and my and my family lifes dying the most horrorifying painful death known. Each point in bewteen is rated a little harsher than the point before. So I try to figure out on my scale this issue rates as far as a response from me. By the time I figure out where on the scale it is my logical brain has taken over and it represses the adreniline and starts to calm me and I can rationaly look at the issue and give it a proper response. Since I've been doing that I haven't had an angry outburst, where before I would tear someones head off just for leaving a dirty glass outside the kitchen. I hope this helps. Get to therapy and maybe your therapist can help oyu find ways to dissolve the anger before you react to it.

Hi,

I don't know if you see a pdoc, but you need to share this information with one. I know you have a lot of stress, but medication and therapy really help with the angry side of bp. It's so hard to control all by yourself.

We're here for you and you are not alone.

Hugs,

Jan