[busiemommie22305]

So I'm on like my third mood stablizer (lithium) AND IT DOESN'T WORK!!!!

The one I was on before the lithium (invega) caused hormone problems and I was taken off of it PDQ. It gave me a small mass on my puitary gland that no one showed me where it is on my MRI. But the MRI still looks cool.

Then I wasn't in a habit of taking something like a mood stablizer twice a day when I was put on respidol (can't spell) so I don't even know if that worked.

I'm totally unstable, been told that there is a good chance that I won't get another p-doc (see THE P.A JUST DOESN'T SEEM TO CARE or something like that, it was started by me ). This isn't good for the 5 yr. old or for the boyfriend (also see AM I ASKING TOO MUCH? in relationships)

Totally feel like I could pop some heads off right now. Too bad my ex-husband isn't here or I would do it. Didn't go to kick-boxing last night because I thought the boyfriend was coming down, but he didn't. I could have really used some bag time. Might head to the mall and put a punching bag in lay-away and finish paying it off when I get my check from school. That way I don't have to worry about when the do-jo is open.

I have all this pent of anger, it feels like, and I usually go on a cleaning spree, you shuld so see my room. It's a mess, but I have no desire to clean it. Have the energy to do it and know it needs to be done, but don't want to. (I'll make myself do it as some point in time.)

It would be awesome if my parents would take my 5 yr old for the night, I hate when I'm like this around him. Very scared that I might loose it and hurt him cause (i hate admitting this) I've done that before. (But I did get help once I realized what was happening and we're in parenting classes, Parents as Teachers.)

I'm just so irritated and depressed and stressed and...... idk. I can't stand humans and I sure can't stand myself right now.

[Trippin2.0]

Read my thread rage,we're in the same damn boat,and I got a 6y.o waiting for me... Guess I just wanted to say I empathize.

[sugahorse1]

Have you tried Lamictin?

[busiemommie22305]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Have you tried Lamictin?

I go to the doctor the 10th, we'll see what he says.

[busiemommie22305]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Have you tried Lamictin?

My mother has suggested that I have a lithium level checked and see if my dose can't be up because lithium is one of the most natural things that is used to treat bi-polar. So tomorrow I'm calling my mental health office, getting an order to have my lithium checked and making sure the hostipal sends the mental health office the report (cause the hostipal hadn't).

There is someone in my town that is a certified herbologist, I am planning on trying to get ahold of that person and see if they might be able to make any suggestions, but my mother says that person it hard to get a hold of cause they also nurse that the hostipal in town.

I did take some rescue remedy yesterday. Kept it in my drink through out the day as well, and I could tell a major difference. My brain moved slower, at a more normal pace. AND I WAS ABLE TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT!!! I didn't want to tear the house down, nor did I cry any.

Now the great debate is telling mom it worked. And I can't exactly tell my boyfriend what's in rescue remedy because there is alchol in it and he is totally against it. But it helped. But there is also Helianthemum nummularium HPUS, Clematis vitalba HPUS, Impatiens glandulifera HPUS, Prunus cerasifera HPUS, Ornithogalum umbellatum HPUS as the active indgedents, the the 27% alchol is "inactive".

Maybe there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

Lithium almost killed me back in the 80's.I had seizure and wound up in ICU.
I don't use mood stabilizers,tried for yrs but nothing seemed to work.About the alcohol,I don't think you can deactivate alcohol.I started drinking beer regularly about 5 years ago and it seems to help with alot of issues.I don't like being dependent on anything but lets get real if a couple of beers set me straight when nothing else will then what I'm going to do when I feel weirded out..........FTW...have a few beers.
P. S. I hate 97% of humans.

[thinker22]

Neither of the mood stabilizers: Lamictal or lithium helped me. I swung wildly while on Lamictal and stayed really depressed on lithium until I had to quit it because it caused hypothyroidism. Now I have to take meds for that. As for atypical anti-psyc's, I've been on almost every one of them too and they all had such terrible side effects that I had to quit them. The one I stayed on that had the least bad side effects was Geodon...and if I don't drink enough water all day long my blood pressure drops and I have nearly fainted several times (just managed to get horizontal in time to let the blood rush back into my head). Yes, that's the good one. So I feel for your plight about mood stabilizers. They and me just don't mix.

[busiemommie22305]

The P.A. told me that being on 300mg of lithium twice daily is no where near the theraputic level, but that is where he has to start me out to see how I handle it all.

So he upped my lithium to 300mg three times a day and upped my zoloft from 50mg to 75mg. I see him back in 30 and see how it goes.

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by busiemommie22305

The P.A. told me that being on 300mg of lithium twice daily is no where near the theraputic level, but that is where he has to start me out to see how I handle it all.

He is correct 900-1200 mg is the average dose. I hope this med works for you.

[BashfullOne]

Wishing you the best and hope the increase in your med helps.
Hugs to you!!!

[ringtailcat]

I've been thru them all, lithium, risperdol, depakote, Lamictal. Neurontin, Seroquel, plus a few others before I came on topiramate. I found this worked for my bi-polar when I started taking it for my migraines.
The main thing is don't stop trying..... there is something out there that will work, or a combination of things....

[busiemommie22305]

Originally Posted by impoftsn

I've been thru them all, lithium, risperdol, depakote, Lamictal. Neurontin, Seroquel, plus a few others before I came on topiramate. I found this worked for my bi-polar when I started taking it for my migraines.
The main thing is don't stop trying..... there is something out there that will work, or a combination of things....

My case manager said we just have to find the right coctail. That term just made me smile.

And for some reason I can be so much more assertive with the case manager in the room with me. I thank her for coming in with me. It was a huge help.

And I think the doctor is starting to realize that I'm not a stable at he/we thought I was. Cause I think when he started me on the lithium I still had some invega in my system. Now I'm on nothing but Zoloft and Lithium. He upped both of them. Zoloft from 50 to 75 mg/daily and Lithium from 600 to 900 mg/daily. And he wants to see me back sooner.

I'm so chalking this up as step forward!