[sugahorse1]

My new job is killing me.
No-one to help me
2 weeks of being stable, and now I'm a jibbering wreck
Been balling my eyes out at my desk
Dont even know how to reply to any e-mails, so my inbox is just filling up
I'm seriously worried I'll land up in a nervous breakdown.
And T is away until whenever...!

[Amandas256]

O Sugahorse! Hang in there! Mayb this isn't the job for you. Is it a stressful position? Is there another T you can see while yours is away? I'm sending lots of love and hugs your way!

[Trippin2.0]

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

And T is away until whenever...!

Did your t-doc leave a contact for someone else while he or she is away?

[sugahorse1]

thanks guys.
Not really keen to go see another T, even though my T did leave contact details for another one with me.
IT is quite a stressful job, but the lack of training is what's making it worse. Think I may be forced to tell my manager I need someone qualified to sit next to me for 2 days.
I haven't even been taught the theory, let alone experienced real life situations and been guided through them. Now the real life situations are landing on my lap, and I am lost.

(((((((((sugahorse)))))))))
Sending you many hugs and positive thoughts. Hang in there, my friend.

[vjdragonfly]

I hate to hear things are piling up on you. I know you was so looking forward to this change in your job. I just hate it when someone throws you in a position without adequate training. I hope for your sake they are willing to put a qualified person with you a couple of days.

[thinker22]

Sending you Sorry that your job is so stressful. I get panicky about work too, but it's usually before I go. Hopefully they will get someone to help you out and get trained so things don't pile up and overwhelm you. I think it is a good idea to ask for help. They would want you to succeed. It's in their best interest to get you trained. Stay safe and call a professional if things get too bad.

[Murky]

Have you eaten anything? Could it be low blood sugar? Maybe you should grab a snack and go for a walk.

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Not really keen to go see another T, even though my T did leave contact details for another one with me.
IT is quite a stressful job, but the lack of training is what's making it worse. Think I may be forced to tell my manager I need someone qualified to sit next to me for 2 days.

I can understand your reasoning with the t-doc issue.

I think speaking to your manager may be a good plan. That is my worse nightmare and I experienced it in the position I have now. One outcome that came out of it is I am extremely patient with new Inspectors in providing guidance and training because I can still remember what it felt like in the first year of the job when no one had any time for me.

[Amazonmom]

Sounds like a completely unfair situation to me. ANYONE would probably be a jibbering mess to get no training for a job and then just be dumped into it.

Talking to your manager about what the expectations are is a great idea.

Agree with the others that a bit more training/guidance is a good plan.
And blueoctober, you are so sweet and kind. Would that there were more like you...

[sugahorse1]

i've tried to tell my boyfriend about my stress and he seems supportive. Yet when i ask him to leave the pub and just be home with me, he gets home 6 hours later. I haven't been able to sleep much and been crying the whole time. It's 3.30 AM here now, and i am so anxious I cannot sleep. I'm having Sui thoughts and just don't know what to do. At work, i have a presentation to the MD tomorrow. If i get asked any questions, i won't know the answers and will burst into tears

[blueoctober]

sugahorse; please speak to someone about your sui thoughts. That really concerns me and I wish I could take your stress away. Wanted to wish you luck in your presentation and remember you are in a new position and you are expecting much more of yourself than your employer would.

Please reconsider speaking to different t-doc and / or see your p-doc. I just got home from work (it's 3:30 am here), so I need to go to sleep, but please, please contact the crisis line if you feel you need to.

[sugahorse1]

Thanks Blue. I managed to fall asleep again at 4:30 AM, and then took a Rivotril (Clonazepam) this AM. Nearly knocked me out during the presentation (Where I luckily didn't have to get too involved) but it's numbed my emotions.
E-mailed my pdoc and asked for something stronger than Clonazepam, and she says she cannot really give me anything stronger, but that I must taper my Lamictin up quicker than initially planned, so I got to 75mg tonight.
I'm really glad she contacted me back.
I just need to decide how best to tackle my job and failing relationship... It's all just too much in one go.

Thanks everyone for checking in on me and supporting me - please can I ask you to continue to...?

[Trippin2.0]

Of course we;ll continue checking in and offering support.
That's what we're here for. Glad your day went better than anticipated

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

I just need to decide how best to tackle my job and failing relationship... It's all just too much in one go.

I hope the increase in the lamictal helps. At this point I would just concentrate on one thing at a time and I think your mental health should be your main concern right now. Making any decisions regarding the job/relationship while your mood is still all over the place is probably not a wise decision.

[Trippin2.0]

[/QUOTE]Making any decisions regarding the job/relationship while your mood is still all over the place is probably not a wise decision.[QUOTE]

Ask me... I know all about that one, pity I didn't know it before hand hey...

[sugahorse1]

Thanks - the relationship: I'm in it; we live together. Any changes are major.
The job - I've been moved and have no choice but to learn to swim