Depression kicked in

Feel like ****. Look like ****. Hate people telling me I have to get up and motivated. I have to eat and drink. Says who. I dont need anything. Stop lying in bed with the covers over ur head. No!

If hiding under the covers is what you want to do right now, it doesn't seem like it should be a big deal. You go ahead and hide.

My Mum is bugging me to get out of bed. She says its not nice seeing me like this. Cause its a bundle of joys for me right! She is only moanin at me cause my Brother and his Girlfriend have came over for Sunday dinner. I dont care. I dont care if I dont eat. I dont care if I dont shower. I just dont care

i dont usually care when im down either, but sometimes i decide to dress up in my prettiest 1950s dress and cute shoes and then lay around and feel down looking like a goddess.

Hey Bridgie,

Haha! Sounds good. I just dont have the energy for anything. Been sleeping on and off. Been in bed 12 hours solid now. I am just so bloody miserable. And I dont no why. Thats the worst thing. I actually dont no why I am feeling like this

well, I do think you should eat and drink, but really, it's not about how you look for them. It's not like you're part of the house decour or a piece of fine art to stand against the wall. Or have I missed something? Hope you feel better though, for you. Not any other reason. HUGGGGGSSSSSSSS.

Hey Lonegael,

I have eaten something and drank something my Mum was nagging me.

My Mum is bugging the life out of me.... She keeps coming into my room making noise. Same with my Sister she is worse than her.

I just dont feel great at the moment and they are making me feel like ****. Why can't they just all leave me alone?

Gonna put a sign on my door...... DO NOT ENTER IN A BAD MOOD!!!!

More hugs, lots of hugs...have to agree with lonegael...I'm sure your brother will come again for Sunday dinner. Maybe someone could explain to your mother the difference between being polite and being mentally ill? I guess the most paradoxical statement you made is "I don't know why." People who don't understand the neurological aspects will convince us to believe that we shouldn't be depressed, and they do it because they care. We know the real why, but it's hard to explain, particularly when you feel like s***. Hope you feel better soon..

Maybe a compromise? You come out of your bed and spend some time with them and they just accept you are not the most cheerful person ever at the moment...

But from my experience I know isolating myself makes it worse, not better... so does not eating.

I hate isolating myself. But I dont no how to b 'polite' wen in others company. I just cant b bothered with it anymore. Why does it need to b so hard. I have a stinker of a sore head. Lying in bed. Its nearly 1230am this is a record for me. Everyone and everything is pissin me off at the moment. Dont want to go to work tomorrow either. Dont no how I am gonna cope

Hi - I hope by the time your read this, you are feeling better.
I know that exact same feeling - I too would lock myself in my room, take a sleeping tab and not worry about what happens around me. It sounds like your mom may need some more education around bipolar, especially if you live with her. My parents don't know - I live with my boyfriend and I prefer thme to not know and worry.

Try just sleep through the moods, but get hold of your T and pdoc in the mean time too.

Hey guys,

Not really feeling any better.... had broken sleep but got around 9-10 hours. So I guess that's something. Just don't want to do anything anymore. I have work in like 3 hours can't be bothered. Really need to work but really don't want to. I have to put the mask on again........... woohoo!!!

I wish I could take tablets if only. Is this what happens when you are being weaned off meds??? I have been weaned off before but this is torture

OK...

Coped at work........ JUST!!

Legs feel dead and they have went weak several times tonight.

Back in work in 8 hours I hate late shift to an early shift.

I have the guy I support 8-9am and then 10-11am my Counselling session back to work for a team meeting at 12pm which will last a few hours and then at 4pm my GP appointment.

LONG DAY TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!

Dreading talking to my counsellor and my gp. What am I gonna tell them. My GP for sure will want me to take time off of work... which I can't do.

Then when I got home tonight my Mum said "are you in a better mood as you were snapping at everyone yesterday" I said "Wekk I wasn't the only one in a bad mood" She said well you weren't nice. END OF

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tell them the truth.

How can I tell them the truth. I just need to get to Sunday and I wil b fine. I need to work. I have just written a thing out for todays appointments as it looks like sleep is the last thing on my mind. Its 230am here. I am up in less than 4 hours. I hurt myself while crying tonight. I read something I wrote at wkend. It really upsets me wen I am really badly depressed. I write nasty things to myself bout me. But some of it were questions I dont have answers for. But I cant show anyone. They r so messy handwritin, so nasty. I am in the upside down way of thinking. My life is good. But its not with me in it wen I am depressed. I like to make my life complicated but this is a bit too complicated for my liking

I'm so sorry Miss Laura.
Will you not get paid sick leave if you take time off?

No cause I have used it all from earlier this year. I had a really good session with my counsellor so I am feeling better. She says I really need to learn to like myself a lot more. So I am gonna try that. Just heading to my GP app now