Is it true?

Today I'm just feeling really terrible. I'm sitting here wondering why I have no real friends. Why don't I even have family that cares about what happens to me? I mean if they really care then why don't they show it? My own parents don't even care. Good grief!! The two people that made me and brought me into this world do NOT care!! What did I ever do in my life to deserve this? I have problems with the way I react to things, and I feel that maybe I have pushed them away. I don't know for sure though. I thought that your family is supposed to be there for you and love you regardless of anything else. I guess I was wrong. And maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself. I don't know how to feel right now. I'm lonely and scared. All I need is someone who cares....REALLY cares. I wonder if I am just overreacting to things, or if it's really true that I am not worthy enough for people to care. I already feel "different" because of the problems I have, but feeling this way only makes that worse. My parents say that I am just very "independant", and that I don't need them as much as my sister does. But I really feel left out. Completely and totally ignored is more like it. It's been this way for years. I'm tired now. I'm going to bed. I'm sorry to seem so negative. I needed to talk about this though.

-Jennifer-

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you are not alone. I am here when ever you need me. If you need to talk pm me.

Thanks (((((((BD)))))) I appreciate it more than you know

-Jennifer-

((((((((((((((((Jennifer))))))))))))))))))))) I am here to talk if you need to. I am sorry you are feeling so poorly. Everyone deserves to be loved. Try and be nice to yourself as you are worthy.

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Thanks so much! I am feeling much better now. Sometimes I just have days like that, but I suppose everyone else does too. It's not that the situation has changed much... I am just trying to accept it the way it is. There's not much I can do to change some of the things I mentioned above. God knows I've tried. I'm just going to go on with life, be happy for my own family, and not worry about it anymore. I've finally realized that I have put forth every effort in trying to become closer to my parents, but it always ends in the same way. I am not going to hate them for it, and I am not going to hate myself for it. I'm just going to accept the fact that this is just the way it is. I'll still talk to them, and be happy to talk to them. And this probably means that we won't talk much, but that's fine with me. I still love them, and I know they love me. But I am tired of trying to change a situation that is out of my control. I have a wonderful family of my own now. A husband that is amazing, and 3 kids that are my life. So, instead of being upset all the time about things I can't change, I am going to enjoy my husband and kids and just be HAPPY....FINALLY. Reading other people's posts around here has helped me gain the strength to do this. I appreciate the people here more than I can explain. This is a huge step forward for me...what I have decided to do about this situation. Thanks everyone.

-Jennifer-

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You haven't done anything to deserve to be ignored. Many families are dysfunctional. It's not the children's fault. We are all here for you. We all care.

Hugs,

Jan

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Thanks It feels good to have a place where I can just be myself and not worry about critisism. I'm glad I can feel comfortable here. Everyone has been so kind, and I am so appreciative.

I do finally realize that it's not my fault, but for so long I thought it was. It takes awhile to get over all of that hurt. But I'll get through this!! I am starting to have more confidence in myself. I've NEVER felt this good about life. I'm happy about it!

-Jennifer-