[Skully]

I have so much to do with moving and all but I don't want to do anything and I have no motivation to do it. I also have ADHD but I take Adderall for that. All I do is pretty much play around on the computer and watch TV. I feel fine, not hyper or depressed, but maybe on the inside something else is going on that my "conscious mind" is not aware of? It is almost like I don't care about the mounting list of things I have to do.

I have lived in my current house for 16 years and now the landlord has decided he wants to fix it up and sell it. I have to be out by the end of this month. I just am not sure how I feel about it yet. Part of me is happy because it is an old drafty farmhouse but I am also sad because there so many memories here.

Could any of this play a part in me not wanting to do anything? Could hypermania/depression be coming on and I am not aware of it yet?

Any advice would be helpful.

[sugahorse1]

I'm sorry to hear you are in this place. I'm sure the thought of having to go through change, must be causeing you some form of anxiety. Look at this as a new start - choose to make it a happy start!

I cannot comment about where you may be heading mood-wise. I'm also teetering on some edge; between stability and what?!?

[BlackPup]

Moving is always really stressful, remember that even "normals" find it hard, one friend described it as like childbirth, you always forget how hard it was last time!

If I was feeling like you were describing, I would call it a mild reactive depression, be careful it doesn't get worse.

[allme]

Hi Skully. Its said that ,oving is one of the most stressful things you can do. And even for someone that doesnt have BP it is very testing on resources. I react in the same way as you when stressed.... not wanting to do anything... kind of ignoring anything has to be done because really it all seems to much to deal with. Becareful and try to relax as you dont want this stress to trigger an episode. Could you inlist help from friends or family?

[Skully]

Originally Posted by allme

Hi Skully. Its said that ,oving is one of the most stressful things you can do. And even for someone that doesnt have BP it is very testing on resources. I react in the same way as you when stressed.... not wanting to do anything... kind of ignoring anything has to be done because really it all seems to much to deal with. Becareful and try to relax as you dont want this stress to trigger an episode. Could you inlist help from friends or family?

I wish I had family I could count on. My mom died 5 years ago and my dad doesn't like me much. Neither does my brother. So count them out. I have a couple of close friends that are going to help me though so that is a relief.

[allme]

Sorry about your family situation But I myself think that close friends are just like, if not better than family!

I dont know if this will help but when I feel overwhelmed or have alot to do, I write a list of things that need to be done and one by one tick them off. As you start ticking through the list, you see the load lightening.

Before you know it you will be happy in your new home!

[sugahorse1]

grab your close friends and make a big party of it. It'll be a matter of days before you will be happy as a pig in mud in your new place. It's a new start.

Try take it easy on yourself and don't bash yourself up for stressing - I HATE moving and normally try beg my boyfriend to get a removal company involved so I need to be as minimally involved as possible.

[bpd2]

Gus1234U wrote a post not long ago about "changing state"--that we fear or avoid doing something because it would "shock" us into another state (of being, silly!) (I hope I got that right, Gus?)

So, what I'm thinking is that the busyness of other activities is just that: avoiding making the change. She suggested that things like being "required" to go to an appointment can "shock" us into the step that we need to make in order to proceed.

That means it would be helpful to ask a friend to come over early and help you start packing up...or start moving the plants...or something small that either forces you into an interaction that forces you to plunge forward, or that tricks yourself into a change of state.

(I really apologize for the punctuation storm...and for the sense of humor....)

[laur88]

That stinks that you have to move - no fun! But look on the bright side: you can look for a cool, new, non-drafty place! This has the potential to become a new adventure!

I hope you start feeling a bit better. I'm feeling a bit like you've described and I know it's really frustrating... Try to keep a positive outlook about moving (easier said than done, I know). It's good that you have some close friends that will help you - that will make the move less stressful.

Best of luck!
-L