Broken record

Well, now that I am hypomanic, I am doing something that has bothered everyone around me for years and years. I repeat myself, over and over. I will ask the same question five or 10 times to assure I got the answer right. I press people for information and answers until they tell me what I want to know or hear. I say the same thing over and over. I'll even bring it up later on and repeat it again.
I am making lists in my head constantly, planning out days ahead of to-do lists. I write down lists everywhere. Step by step they have to be done. From eating breakfast on down to the rest of the day.
If I mess up the list in my head, I have to start it all over again. I do this all day long. It's a compulsion. I HAVE to do it.
I look around and see things that need to be done and I am pushed to do them until I feel it's right.
Distractions and keeping busy only help a little. I still list in my head.
I hate that I bother people so much like this. I don't mean to. I don't even realize I'm repeating things.
Sigh. I see pdoc tomorrow and will tell him this. Just wanted to vent.

I do hope your pdoc can help you with this. It sounds kind of like the more you try not to do this, the more you do it.

Maybe your brain only accepts information it can understsand or accept or makes sense? Like if the software and the hardware of the computer are not compatible, you will not get results? Or maybe your brain hasn't got the message that not everything you take in make sense that it is okay for it not to make sense?

I'd be interested in hearing what your pdoc has to say about this. It's hard to know you are doing something you don't want to do but can't seem to get a handle on controlling it. Very frustrating huh?

Sending you safe cyberhugs.

This sounds like ocd .Ocd will also causes you to ask the same questions over and over again.I have ocd I do the same things over again when I want too just relax here are the thoughts coming on stronger telling me over and over again that I have to feed the dogs and need to go to the stores all kind of thoughts it me crazy having all these thoughts all the time .And I even ask the same questions over and over again I know I get on there nerves but like you said you dont want to .Just look up ocd If you dont know nothing about it cause that does sounds like you are suffering from it.Big huggskeep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Hi ladyjrnlist..Fingers crossed your pdoc will have a solution. I noticed when I'm hypomanic, my brain switches thoughts so fast I have to ask repeatedly; I also talk to myself. Maybe an adjustment to your mood stabilizer will help. Sending calming vibes your way..

yep, LadyJ, sounds like an OCD that gets out of control when you're manic,,, sometimes meds can help, sometimes not,, best wishes~~ Gus

Sorrry you cannot enjoy your hypomania like you're supposed to :-)

I hope your pdoc will understand and have a solution for you

I drive people crazy esspecially my partner. i don't repeat myself when i talk but i guess i have a problem explaining things in different ways. like they understood what i was trying to say the first time but i don't think i did so i go on and on in different ways to explain (the subject matter) i am tottaly oblivious to this...i tell people to just cut me off and say STOP! doesn't hurt my feeligs. i'm also where i will be tottaly mad or pissed then a few minutes later not even care why someone pissed me offf and your my friend...ultradian cycling...yipeeee!