freaking out about little things

the littlest things worry me, i dread doing anything like dishes laundry, im currently on unemployment and I have to file a new claim due to a new benefit year and im totally freaking out about it. I wont lie I took a few xtra xanax to deal with it, hoping I can just sleep the day away instead of feeling this way. I ask myself why am i freakin gout, all it is is a phone call to re file, im still eligible for benefits for atleast another month or 2. I think i just want to get it over with, . Everyday things that i never batted an eyelash at now drive me over the hill and around the corner to the looneybin, I hate feeling this way, even when its really not a big deal, for me, it is, anyone else feel like this? thanks for listening,
Beth

I have felt like this a lot of times....And at these times, the only thing that stops me from believing I'm useless is the factual evidence that I HAVE managed in the past. So, do keep that in mind at all times and don't hate yourself because this isn't you

Maybe focus on the basics, give yourself more resting 'comfort zone' time, and tackle one thing at the time...And maybe talk to your T about it?
Although, not knowing what will happen with benefits after the next 2 months would probably stress anyone out...

Anyway, please don't freak out about freaking out!
I hope you feel better soon

I've been there too. Totally overwhelmed !Sad Robot has some good advice for you.

Sometimes for me I just need to remove myself from my situation for a while. Sometimes I go to my favorite spot which is the thrift store. I just wander around and sometimes I find a real goody. When I was living in Florida I would go to the beach. That always made me feel better. It put things in perspective. Try to find that kind of place where you live. That might help. Here in Fairfax Virginia its finally getting better as far as weather goes. Our complex has a courtyard and fountain and beautiful trees etc so that helps too.

Sometimes I list things in prioity and then I make a goal to maybe to do two, or one, or three a day.......I don't think of what I have to do, but that I did what I wrote down. You feel then like you have made some success. Its a good feeling.

Being overwhelmed can leave you totally frozen so that is not good. Being home too, you worry more because there is nothing to take your mind off the issues at hand. Been there too! So you got to separate yourself for a while...get out of the house, have some fun with friends whatever. Not having a lot of money narrows things a bit but you just got to be a little more creative.

Feel better!

Mmmm I have had a similar freakout resistance in the past. Mine was due to incorrect meds. I'd lie in bed all day and freak out when getting out of bed was unavoidable.
I feel for you, maybe your in a similar boat as I was in.
Hope it all smooths out

Yeah, my bipolar really makes me anxious about a lot of stupid little things. For example: I love my work. I work at target and love love love the people I work with and the job its self isn't that bad either. However, I always feel really worried the noight before. I don't understand why. Its like I fear that I have to actually leave my house to do anything these days and that includes work.I wonder what causes it but I wish it could just STOP. I'm sory to hear you're worried about little stuff as much as I am but maybe your doctor can change your medications around or something like that.

I know what you mean. It's quite the paradox: your rational self tells you one thing and your emotional self tells you the exact opposite. It's the worst because you want to listen to your rational self but emotions take over instead.

Deep breaths help me sometimes. Watching a movie or reading to get my mind off of things can also help (although it can also exacerbate it if you feel like you're wasting time).

Hope you start feeling better soon! It'll pass...

I definitely get this way as well - same thing where small things that never would have bothered me before are now causing me major anxiety and i'm taking a bit more xanax than usual these days myself...
Feel better soon.

Beth,
Yup. A LOT.

Good advice from SadRobot... you have managed! And will again. Proof!

On a variation of missbelle's advice, if you are a list-maker try writing things down that are already done and cross them off. Doesn't matter how small. Like..."brushed teeth". Just looks good to have some things crossed off, you know? Can help with the overwhelm of looking only at what is undone (and the perception that creates). Used to have an art teacher that advised, say, spilling some ink on the blank paper and go from there. It's the blankness. The not knowing where to start that sometimes builds into anxiousness. "Accidently" do some tiny thing before you even can think about it (for me, this might be BC...before coffee ). Or grab the phone and dial the number while you pull up some pages on the computer. Then, your mind is distracted. Or at least divided between a distraction that doesn't cause you stress and something that does. You're not making a call, just punching in numbers, see?

Hope this doesn't sound like procrastination advice. Ok, it is and it isn't. Thing is, for me anyway, there's the anxiety, then things either pile up or stay undone for "too long". Creating more anxiety. Overwhelm. Oh yeah, he's in there too. Even when there's hardly anything! Ack! Point is, it can feel like a viscious circle. "Tricking" your mind can be a help in pulling out of it.

Take it slowly and don't beat yourself up over it. It'll pass. (And hey, having BP, you know this is true! Think of all the times you get everything and a half done! It all evens out. )

(Btw, I like your quote line. )

thanks for ur advice, i find it very helpful, i like the list idea, ive dug myself out of a hole before and I can do it again , but its gonna be a little harder because i dont think I have the strength I used to have. thanks a ton!
Beth

Jeez Beth, that is EXACTLY where I am right now. I haven't checked the mail in over a week, don't want to call the cable company to turn off services I don't use, the list goes on and on. Especially housework. Dishes, cleaning up anything, I just can't seem to do it.

I keep thinking it's just laziness, because I know if a gun was held to my head, I could technically do it. I just don't understand how I got so "lazy" so fast!

Anyway, sounds like you're definitely not alone, and I hope you find your way out of it!

Meanwhile, I better go order paper plates and cups off the internet while I'm thinking about it...

hi my name is heather. i understand what ur saying i have been doing that to the point where it has been causing really bad problems for me and my bf and my familys. i hate doing it but i dont know ow to chill. i feel like i have to stay to myself so i stop hurting my love ones for no reasons. i hat being like this. a couple days ago i my bf and his son were talking about my bf seeing his step daughter again and beacuse of that i filp and caused my more problems then i wanted.