Strange depression

((I am going to talk to my pdoc about this))
I have been keeping myself occupied and distracted because I'm not trying to give this depression any power. Does depression feel like another entity for some people? I don't think it's an accurate description, but I feel like it is there. I know its not what I actually feel, because I don't feel terrible all day.

The thoughts I'm getting tend to be violent. I'll just say that. The thoughts remind me that I'm not well. It almost feels like I'm not medicated. (I'm taking my medication, though)

I am going to try sleeping more and not oversleeping. Maybe that will help?

My depressi0n is like that,a whole other entity waiting 2 take over. With her own voice and her own will. Since I've been on an antipsychotic ( risperdal) she's shut up and doesn't seem like she's lurking in the backround waiting to attack me. I must say tho,that I have been stable for the m0st part of the last 8 m0nths. My heart goes out to you... XOXO

My depression also seems to be another entity. Right now, it is knocking on the door, waiting to take over. When she has taken over in the past, I have no control. My thoughts are not my own

My depression also seems to be another entity. Right now, it is knocking on the door, waiting to take over. When she has taken over in the past, I have no control. My thoughts are not my own

Yea. I read something about this and it gave me some power over my depression. I can combat it better knowing it isn't me. It just wears me down and I have moments where I fall for her trap. I've been holding onto the belief that it's a lie. I want my sanity back. xD;;

Confusedinomicon
Not uncommon for Bipoplar. When I'm mixed, I have powerful mood swings from minute to minute sometimes - completely unprovoked by events. I get this vision of hands pushing my back while I'm standing on the edge of a cliff. I feel powerless to control whether I stand or fall into frenetic mania or destructive suicidal plans. Hold on tight.

My depression, when it's heavy, feels like another being... as though it were a heavy, wet, cold blanket draping over me. It sits on top of me pressing down on my chest when I wake up, and I can't move, and it settles on my shoulders and my back when I try to make my way through the day. At it's worst it doesn't only sit on top, it also oozes through and fastens me down so I can barely move at all.