woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.

My first thoughts were of people who have "wronged" me (mostly in my head), how I have screwed up my life, how I am a loser who should have achieved much more, and just general anger about everything. Ugh. I hate it when I get like this. I am turning 40 next week and I think this has something to do with it. I have no children (want (ed) them), I'm divorced and horrible at relationships, addiction issues, bipolar, etc......but in reality my life isn't so bad. I have wonderful friends and family who love me, a job, a home, a car, etc.......this is purely irrational self-hating stuff in my head this morning.

I needed to vent, so if this post is too negative, I'm sorry. I'm gonna go clean for a while and see if that helps me get some of this crappy energy out.

Thanks for listening!

reader

reader, your staying busy is a good coping tool. don't give those negative thoughts get "rent space" in your head. bipolar plus depression often times tells us we are crap when we are not.hope you feel better soon.

I get simlar thoughts.

reader Had one of those wake-up-to-swirling-negative-thoughts days just yesterday (today a bit better) too, and they sure are frustrating, aren't they? I hope that the cleaning helps dispel that negative energy for you. (And the sense of accomplishment that comes with having a clean house never hurts either! )

Vent away -- it's good to be able to do that with people who understand!

I called my best friend and we went out to lunch and shopping for a few hours. It's a sunny day and it was really nice to walk around and catch up. I feel much better. Thanks for your kind responses! Today makes me realize that reaching out to someone who cares is usually a helpful thing.