[BethD1980]

Im new here, and going thru a rough time, im unemployed and having a hard time finding a job or the motivation to do so ( although today i managed to send out 4 resumes) My husband recently left me due to my mood swings, and he was the "bread winner" he pd all the bills, so he left me high and dry paying all the bills on my unemployment money, its not easy, sinse he left all i do is worry and wonder whats going to happen next, i have a little girl and she helps me get thru the day, i cant wait till she comes home from school and spend time with her. Im so lonley. Ive never been this deeply depressed, i have a T and a pdoc, ive been on many mood stabilizers, right now im on effexor abilify xanax and klonopin, the xanax barely gets me thru the day, and the effexor hasnt kicked in yet. I think I need to do find something to do to occupy my time, i just dont know what. Other than serious job searching.anyhow thats my story, im glad I found this place, its nice to know Im not alone.

[OrangeMoira]

Welcome to PC. I'm glad you're here!

It's so hard to be unemployed. Lots of people fall into depression if they are at all susceptible to it. The lack of structure, especially, can be really challenging. I've been unemployed for months before, and getting motivation to keep plugging is so tough. Good job sending out 4 resumes. That's a lot for one day!

I'm glad you're able to see your T and pdoc. It sounds like you're working hard to take care of yourself. That's great!

Are there free things in your city you can do to get yourself out of the house? I know that when I'm very depressed if I can just make myself move that's half the battle. Can you go to an art museum or park? Are you exercising?

Good luck with the job search. Hope you're feeling better soon.

[Capriciousness]

I'm new here too and wanted to say hi. Oh my, You're in a very stressful situation. Go easy on yourself. It sounds like you are a great mom doing her best

[CesarioRose]

Aww. Welcome to PC. I'm BP II, too. I can remember a time right out of college where i struggled for almost a year to find a job period. and when i did it was crappy telemarketing, and not in my field. It took me another year to find the right job that suites me. It takes time, and a lot of patience. I was pretty much depressed for like two years straight during that time.

Hang in there. You're not alone in this!

[blueoctober]

Welcome BethD1980 I'm sorry you're going through a rough time and I hope that you find a career that you enjoy.

[annege42]

Sorry to hear about your stressful situation. Have you thought about filing for ssi diability for your bipolar? If you have medical records that prove you have a history of bilpolar, you should be able to qualify for benefits. Also you may be entitled to federal assistance because you have a child. I hope everything works out for you.

[unico]

I'm sorry you are dealing with this. I hope the Effexor helps. I agree that exercising or taking walks outside the house could be good. Also journaling/writing if you enjoy that, or some simple arts or crafts project... Maybe you could do something like that with your daughter even. I do a lot of art and writing and they keep me sane.

[FNCrazy]

You're not alone. I have virtually the exact same circumstances down to the ending of a 4 year relationship, unemployment (instead of looking for a job though, I decided to go back to school, which is nifty except I can't hardly leave my house anymore I'm so depressed). Where was I? Oh yeah, similarities. I count the hours until my 6 year old son comes home, and once his homework is squared away, I just play with him, whatever he wants. I have no social life of my own, just him 50% of the time. All other times, I sleep or try to sleep.

I was just diagnosed with type 2, before it was just a variety of anxiety disorders, severe depression, and ADD. Feels like I've been falling and falling, and I'm just trying to get my fingernails in to the side of the cliff to grab on. Not working yet.

Good luck!

[sugahorse1]

Hi and welcome. It took me years to find relief from depression, and it was Wellbutrin and a good pdoc. I also had to work on a good support structure.
This site has been invaluable to me too

[BethD1980]

thanks everyone for ur support. Its very comforting to know Im not alone feeling like this, I got a p/t job today! Im not sure if its gonna be enough to pay the bills, but i will find out, and atleast it will get me out of the house. Im also gonna start herbalife, my friend is a distributor for it, and has gotten amaxing results. Ive gained a lot of weight from some bipolar meds, mainly zyprexa. as far as exercise, I cant afford a gym membership and its awfully cold outside, but on the days where its bearable I go for a walk, Im also doing a workbook from Iylana vanzant called "living thru the meantime" thats helping me a ton.Its helping me understand myself and my views on life and love. Its my journey to self discovery and is giving me something to do , so the past few days havent been so overwheliming. I go back ot the pdoc on friday and hope to have good news to tell her ( maybe the effexor is finally kickin in!) and I go see my T tomorow which I always look forward to, she rocks! thanks again everyone!
Beth

[OrangeMoira]

Congratulations, BethD!!

[BlackPup]

Glad you are feeling better.... good luck with your new job...

[FNCrazy]

Good luck and congratulations!

[Amazonmom]

Yeah, Good luck! HUGS