[aubreypaigeee]

Haha, I feel sorry for some of my close friends & my family. They put up with the hateful words I lash out at them, & the spur of the moment decisons that I'm always making! I feel like I'm constantly apologizing to people for things I might have said or done without thinking about first, & I don't wanna lose some of those good relationships! Am I alone?! Haha.

[Confusedinomicon]

You're not alone, a lot of people experience it. :') (Generally before they learn more about the disorder)

I think it is important that you try to take care of yourself, though. If you are going the route of medicine, make sure you take it as prescribed. Therapists can help with emotional issues you may be experiencing. Trying to eat right and work out can significantly help your mood.

If you're not trying to take care of yourself, than you can only really blame yourself for allowing the disease to take hold. There are even holistic approaches that you can try to help your mood. What matters is that you're trying your best to get well and not using bipolar as an excuse, because it really isn't.

I spent 2 years in denial and attributed my bad behavior to being bipolar, when I could have easily stopped it by taking my medication as prescribed. I'm learning to accept the disorder as it is, and finally take care of myself. Sometimes I have med issues, but I'm trying. I hope you are too.

[BlackPup]

I've definitely treated people in bad ways that they did not deserve. The best thing you can do for it is do everything that you can to be well and stable and be a good friend back to them. some people will leave you because of it and others will accept it as part of your illness... I can understand both positions because the hurt is real even if it was due in part because of the illness.
Cherish those that stand by you and appreciate them for what they have put up with.

[sugahorse1]

I've just decided to log on to PC after I took off at a lady at work.
I still believe what I had to say was right, just not the manner in which I approached it.
I think people are realising I wear my heart on my sleeve.
But yes-i find myself often having to text my bf and apologise. I just get set off so easily and then blurt out exactly how I feel

[vjdragonfly]

That was a major issue for me before I was diagnosed BP. Before they just said I was depressed and put me on anti-depressants. The end result was always the same, I became irritable and b****y. I was evil towards anyone in my path. Unfortunately that was mostly the ones I love most, my husband and kids. So please be thankful for the people that stand by you while you go through this, it is just as hard on them.

[allme]

No, you're not alone....when pushed, I still do hateful things and say the most horrible hurtful stuff to my husband. It's almost as if I enjoy it at the time, and know how to push his buttons. I always feel guilty afterwards. Argued today, but didn't feel guilty. But, I am being pushed to my limits at the moment. Anyway, sorry, I totally made that about me! Damn self absorbed.

Just wanted to let you know, that you're not alone.