[NuckingFutz]

Was working on a project for my sister. I was posting about 300 postcards a week to an auction site. I've been on a learning curve, but was doing well until today...

I double check everything to make sure the pictures match up with the text, but she said the last batch I did was so mixed up, she would have to pull me from the project because it takes her less time to just post them herself.

Is there any research out there on any cognitive effects of bipolar people going down/getting worse.

Sister is being as supportive as she can about it.

[AbeIsAbe]

I'm confused about your questions... Could you re-state it in a different way?

[ladyjrnlist]

It's also possible that if you are on any meds, they may contribute to that. Check into that as well. Depression can also cause cognitive impairment.

Originally Posted by NuckingFutz

Was working on a project for my sister. I was posting about 300 postcards a week to an auction site. I've been on a learning curve, but was doing well until today...

I double check everything to make sure the pictures match up with the text, but she said the last batch I did was so mixed up, she would have to pull me from the project because it takes her less time to just post them herself.

Is there any research out there on any cognitive effects of bipolar people going down/getting worse.

Sister is being as supportive as she can about it.

Stress, meds...maybe you just had a bad day....sometimes repetitive detailed work like that isn't for everyone....

Don't be so hard on yourself!

[BNLsMOM]

I can't even dial a phone properly anymore. My typing is starting to go too. I think it is my meds.

[Yoda]

when I was taking topamax it had a negative impact on my memory and daily functioning

you might take b complex vitamins and omega 3 fatty acids; they are supposed to help cognitive functioning

[Direction]

Originally Posted by jadedmoonbeam

Stress, meds...maybe you just had a bad day....sometimes repetitive detailed work like that isn't for everyone....

Don't be so hard on yourself!

I agree! There are many things that could be going on...a suggestion if you want to dive further into this...try to write down the various varibles going on that day...where you depressed, manic, taking new meds, did you get enough sleep, or too much, missed taking meds, significant other yelled at you and you were distracted,etc. As you have any future cognition issues do the same...you may find a bit of a trend.

[NuckingFutz]

yeah, I guess I found a trend. I quit smoking about a month ago. Was thinking that was a factor. I use to live alone but now I live in a house with 3 other people and it's loud. I'm also not really familiar with the software I am using (it's French). My family also makes me a bit nervous...they like to have things really clean. Even if something doesn't work, or is useless, if it's not clean, it's time to yell a conversation about it. I also get comments like I have no willpower... this coming from my brother-in-law.

I kinda jumped the gun when I moved here and they kinda jumped the gun when they asked me to move here (they have no understanding of bipolar). They can scan sheets of info on bipolar and still they do not understand. If I could financially leave here I would, but I really can't for another couple of months. I'm trying to look for a job, but my sister put me back on the project since I came up with a solution... let me work on just one computer instead of three depending on what everyone else is doing, also let me work on one version of the software I need to post these cards (I am using two different versions because one computer can't handle the latest version). Also, as I type this, I here 2 different tv sets going. I don't expect everything to be perfectly quiet, but my hearing is quite good and it is hard for me to concentrate. My sister and her hubby both have offices they can go into. I have a loft which is open to the rest of the house.

You know, I just feel like I really screwed up by moving here. I may have "things" and be away from dangerous drug dealers and stuff, but at least I had my freedom. I've tried talking to these people, but they just aren't very smart or they don't seem to get it.

I have a support meeting on Wednesday night for bipolar and I don't have my license for here yet, so my sister is going (they have a group for families of bipolar people), but she can't drive because she has seisures, so her husband has to go too...maybe he will learn something who knows...doubt it.

Originally Posted by NuckingFutz

yeah, I guess I found a trend. I quit smoking about a month ago. Was thinking that was a factor. I use to live alone but now I live in a house with 3 other people and it's loud. I'm also not really familiar with the software I am using (it's French). My family also makes me a bit nervous...they like to have things really clean. Even if something doesn't work, or is useless, if it's not clean, it's time to yell a conversation about it. I also get comments like I have no willpower... this coming from my brother-in-law.

I kinda jumped the gun when I moved here and they kinda jumped the gun when they asked me to move here (they have no understanding of bipolar). They can scan sheets of info on bipolar and still they do not understand. If I could financially leave here I would, but I really can't for another couple of months. I'm trying to look for a job, but my sister put me back on the project since I came up with a solution... let me work on just one computer instead of three depending on what everyone else is doing, also let me work on one version of the software I need to post these cards (I am using two different versions because one computer can't handle the latest version). Also, as I type this, I here 2 different tv sets going. I don't expect everything to be perfectly quiet, but my hearing is quite good and it is hard for me to concentrate. My sister and her hubby both have offices they can go into. I have a loft which is open to the rest of the house.

You know, I just feel like I really screwed up by moving here. I may have "things" and be away from dangerous drug dealers and stuff, but at least I had my freedom. I've tried talking to these people, but they just aren't very smart or they don't seem to get it.

I have a support meeting on Wednesday night for bipolar and I don't have my license for here yet, so my sister is going (they have a group for families of bipolar people), but she can't drive because she has seisures, so her husband has to go too...maybe he will learn something who knows...doubt it.

Don't they say "You can't put a price on Freedom"?

It's totally understandable that you feel trapped and uncomfortable - when I work from home - I never put the tv on or like any noise around me....Can you get some ear plugs for the noise - they sell them at the drug store and they really block it - might help you concentrate!

It is always hard when you go from living on your own to moving in with people, whether it's family or a boyfriend/girlfriend. It sounds like they think they are "helping" but not really making much of an accomodation for you.

i'm glad you are going to a support group, and maybe they will learn something or maybe next time they can just drop you off!

[Direction]

I would say that there has been a lot of stuff going on...

[NuckingFutz]

Yeah, I guess. I just called my sister-in-law about all this. She said that although my brother-in-law is a nice guy, he's really controlling. She said to watch out not to use their phone if I want privacy and use my own computer if I want computer privacy. He already noted his disapproval of my lunch today. But my sister in law mention that it's not about me, that he is controlling and if I want things private, make sure to use my phone and my computer.

I'm going to ignore his snarky comments for now, but when I get my own place, I'm going to let him have it. Let him now that the reason I will have little contact with this branch of the family is because he is a noisy, nosy, obnoxious person.

[ladyjrnlist]

Sounds like a crappy environment for bipolar. I hope you can get out soon. Hang in there until then. You can do it.

[NuckingFutz]

Just talked to my sister-in-law earlier today. She said that my brother-in-law is nice, but he is really controlling (nice validation here). She said to call her anytime but to use my cell or if I write her, use my computer because he listens in on his phone line and monitors the activity on his internet account. That's pretty bad. At least I know it's not just me being paranoid. As long as he is nice to my sister, that is okay with me... I will try and hold back my honest but sarcastic remarks from now on.

[sugahorse1]

Hi NF-good to see you back!
Sorry things have been tough. You need to go a bit easy on yourself. We all have some tough patches where we need to take a step back.
I must say, I've started to become a bit dyslexic in the last while; it's terrible.

Try focus on the good things, and the steps forward you've made
Xx

[thinker22]

Sending you big hugs.

You are a strong person to have survived all the challenges you have faced. Don't ever let anyone tell you you're weak willed or somehow milking your mental illness. No one but the fellow mentally ill can know what it's like. It's hell most of the time. You are remarkable in your ability to accomplish anything in that house and in the world. Keep on fighting the good fight.

[NuckingFutz]

Can you say "no kidding". I guess I have to RELEARN to to be easy on myself, even if others are not. Was able to come through for my sister in a medical issue last night, so I feel like things are better again.

Thank you all again for your support and I will keep you posted.

Hugs...