[jack123]

I started a new job. Did paperwork orientation the last 2 days. I had filed for disability and I felt that I needed to try one more time to see if I can work. I am a nurse and I love working with people. I otherwise don't socialize well and usually isolate myself. Anyway my old boss who is suppoesed to be my friend called tonight and told me I needed the disability that I would never be able to handle the stress of working. I had my hopes so high and now I am crying and down again. I called my mom and she acted like she didnt know if I could do it either. I am just not ready to live dependant on other people to take care of me.

[ladyjrnlist]

You have to decide that for yourself. Don't listen to your old boss. If you want to give it a try, do it. Better to try then to always wonder about it. Disability will still be there if you need it later on, unless the government implodes anyway.
I'm about to take a temporary job myself after several months without. Very nervewracking. I understand.

[jack123]

My mood had gotten so much better and all in one night one person sent me spiraling. I am trying hard to get back up. DOnt want to show up to work depressed or anxious.

[Kmbpeace1171]

I just got put on disability 4 months ago moved out from my friends house to Colorado Springs into my own apartment still adjusting to being "dependent" and it is hard but I am managing and taking it one day at a time, I dont regret going on disability as I had five hospitalizations total, 3 in a one year time period, it is NOW My full ltime job to recover and take the best care of myself that I ever have.

[Direction]

Being on disability does not mean you need to be there forever...it can be a great help while this get settled down and more stable...

[BlackPup]

Try, but remember that it's not the end of the world if you need more time to recover.... don't be hard on yourself or push yourself too hard when you are down... It's hard to learn to give yourself a break....

YOU feel you want to give the work thing a go, and good solid reasons to pursue it! It's not up to others to decide, and I'm sorry they took such a negative approach.

Go for it! Yeah, maybe there is stress, but maybe also you have the option of doing part time (or other ways to reduce stressful aspects) and find it manageable because of the benefits of working with people and socializing. You can always leave if you find it unmanageable, right? So might as well try.

Keep us posted jack123, ok?

[kykid]

Originally Posted by jack123

I started a new job. Did paperwork orientation the last 2 days. I had filed for disability and I felt that I needed to try one more time to see if I can work. I am a nurse and I love working with people. I otherwise don't socialize well and usually isolate myself. Anyway my old boss who is suppoesed to be my friend called tonight and told me I needed the disability that I would never be able to handle the stress of working. I had my hopes so high and now I am crying and down again. I called my mom and she acted like she didnt know if I could do it either. I am just not ready to live dependant on other people to take care of me.

I say go for it. I have been on disability for 8 years now and still wonder if I could go back to work (I have some brain damage from surgery in addition to bi-polar disorder with major depression). Along these lines, I took a part-time job in my former field just this past January and have found this rewarding. It is very low stress, which enables me to do it without endangering my health, and very low pay, which doesn't interfere with my disability.

I only have one question. What does your doctor or therapist say about you going back to work? If you have a good relationship with them then they are the only one I would take advice from about reentering your chosen field.

Good luck Jack.

[AbeIsAbe]

I constantly have thought that I could go back to work and be just fine. What make me realize I was wrong was doing tasks that take a lot out of you. By doing so, I realized that I am not at the full potential to be able to truly help someone else right now. And often times, helping someone else feels good but does not help you. Gives you something else to think about, somewhere to focus so you don't have to reflect upon yourself and your needs. Try doing things similar. Or just try the job anyway. The very worst that happens is that you plummet and end up in the hospital. Thats the very worst. So watch for warning signs. Keep an open eye on how you are doing during your shifts and afterwards.. Maybe they are wrong. Maybe you can do it. But no one will know unless you try or try something similar.

[jack123]

Thanks everyone for the advice and support. I worked my first day on the floor. It went fine. Just have to learn the routine of the facility. I am watching for warning signs so I will know if I am getting in trouble. My mood has been upbeat today.