On vacation, Can't sleep

I slept 2 nights in a row.
We took our motorcycle, from New Jersey to New Hampshire. 9 hours 4 stops. I love to ride, just a bad trip with rain and chilly and my anxiety.
It was 100 degrees Farenheit in NJ the last 4 days - I was not dressed all that warmly and it effing rained the whole way up. the was supposed to be our first night camping but I am typing this from a hotel room.
I kept having panic attacks inside my helmet - Cold...chilled to my bone, my body hurt.
I fell asleep and now I'm up. I wish I could sleep because tomorrow will be a busy day.I keep crying an don't want my husband to know. He's been so good about keeping me happy and comfortable - he didn't want me camping in the rain.
But I just keep thinking maybe I should have stayed home even though I didn't want to be home alone.
Just trying to stay calm. I had to start counting to relax for the ride - the music was starting to get to me.. I will noe get in bed again with the meditation music and see ig thst helps.

jade, hopefully your insomnia is just left-over adrenaline from the harrowing ride. Perhaps you can take more frequent breaks today, maybe not try to go as far? And hopefully, the weather will cooperate. Your hubs wouldn't want you to push yourself when you're not well.

I'm sorry this crappy weather fell on Bike Week. It really has been pretty cool and wet here this weekend. I hope today went better for you. Things are supposed to clear up and be nice by mid-week, so hang in there! Hopefully, your plans are to be up here for a few more days so you can enjoy some sunshine.

I escaped night # 2 in a tent. Which was good because I was flipping out on the back on the way back from where all the stuff was to where our "campground" was....but at the last minute, husband pulled into the same hotel we stayed in last night he said it's too cold and rainy and he didn't want my camping to be like this. I was so relieved I started crying, which I'd been doing for half the ride anyway...half our stuff is in a tent at the campgroung but I didn't care. It was going into the 40s that night.

I hope you're right Dragonfly bc we are supposed to clmb Mt Washington today and then ride to the top!

This whole trip was not my idea...if it warmer maybe it would have been better. If it was supposed to be in a hotel and i wasn't panicking about the camping maybe better...I tried to get out of going so many times - his friend was supposed to go but he kept saying how he really wanted me to go and then yesterday he told me he was so glad I was with him...
And I guess I'm glad, it's just so cold and damp and i brought all the wrong clothes and we don't even have room for all of them on the bike - will be shipping some home.

Out next trip is in August and I am planning that one.

And with all of this, I still didn't sleep well -hopefully tpday after hiking I will be tired enough. my body is just so tired and stressed i feel like I'm wound so tight. This is the most beautiful place in the country and I can't even enjoy.

Hey Dragonfly - do you see a lot of Moose? I'm DYING to see a moose!

I'm glad you got to sleep in a hotel last night. Sometimes camping just isn't the way to go when it's like this, lol. Mt. Washington is amazing. Just be careful and mindful of the weather up there - it can change on a dime and it's wicked windy. As for moose, we see a few here and there. Later today I'll try to upload a pic of one that visited us in our backyard a while ago. You may actually see one up that way - oh, and watch for black bears too.

I really hope you get to enjoy our state - it is quite beautiful.

For some reason, I can't seem to upload my moose pictures. It goes through the whole percentage-counting upload process and then times out for some reason. Sorry.

Hi- It always seems to rain on bike week.Sorry you've had a rough trip. i have photos of moose taken in Pittsburg,N.H. on page 1 of my photo album

thanks DragonFly and RoxiesMom - "Operation Jaded doesn't Camp" has worked - we are staying in the hotel again tonight! We could see husband's breath last night.

I LOVE New Hampshire and Maine, Vermont too - I want to live up here. so beautiful.

2 years ago we went up Mt Washington on the Motorcycle - it was one of the few sunny days there was that summer - we really lucked out. The hiking I'm nervous about - I'm a bit clumsy.

Still no sleep and Ive upped my sleeping pill dosage. I really just want to knock myself out. I see the pdoc as soon as I come home. not the optimal way to spend vacation but we're getting along and we're not camping!

Hooray for hotels on cold, rainy nights!

My brother-in-law went up to the weather observatory on Mt. Washington in the middle of November once. He ended up getting stuck up there in the snow and had to SLED down the auto road! Yes. SLED! He missed his wedding anniversary, lol, and my sister-in-law was pissed. He almost missed Thanksgiving.

If it's any consolation, I did see the sun come out a bit today, and I hear it's supposed to only get better from here. Are you going out by the lakes at all or staying up by Mt. Washington? My family used to vacation in Wolfeboro every summer.

We saw a little sun today but it was raining when we left dinner.

We are supposedly hiking tomorrow but who knows. he changes his mind constantly.

My stomach is so sick now from the stress of it all and from finally eating some salad...he's downstairs with his new friends...I needed some alone time.

I need to look at the map to see how we will get through Maine, Vermont and New York to get to NE PA by Friday Morning to celebrate my Dad's Birthday. He (husband) had one small hissy fit today..which makes me stress out. I listen to music on the back of the bike but have been counting to calm myself down....has anyone done that? Just count? I just start and keep going - I've gotten to about 2500 before we hit a destination. I'm sure it will make for interesting therapy.
I would like to hike because i'd like to be physically tired to help me sleep.
I am so not myself.
half the time I think it's good that I came - he's being so nice and patient and caring and then he freaks out and takes it out on me and then i think I should have just stayed home.
I just can't win or sleep.
SIGH
I'm done for now
Thanks everyone.